The Plan//solby✔

Chapter: 48 hours

Colby's POV
Tuesday
(Trigger warning, offensive language)

Last night was much worse than Sunday night. After I booked our flights, I went upstairs and took a shower. I wrapped a towel around my waist and exited the shower.

I looked into the mirror and saw that I looked a little better, at least I didn't look like I hadn't slept in years. I looked down at my wrist and saw the scares that I created when I was in high school, back then I was confused about who I was and didn't know how to deal with it, to make it worse I was bullied in school. I didn't want to live anymore until I meet Sam. He saved me from ending it all. And now, in a couple of hours, I'm going to have to revisit my past. We had to be at the airport in an hour. I went over to Sam's room to see if he was ready. I entered his room to see him sitting on his bed staring at a wall. He hadn't been acting the same, his eyes lost the bright blue they were grey. I felt bad for him, he had taken this way harder than I had.

"Sam we have to go, or else we'll miss our flight." I said turning around and going down stairs. Sam followed shortly after.

We got into my car and drove to the airport the ride was silent and boring.
We got to airport and did the normal stuff you would do at an airport. We ran to our gate te and got our seats. Neither Sam or I were in a good mood to talk or doing anything fun, the whole plane ride I looked out the window, lost in my thoughts.

We got off the plane and rented a car. Sam had said he was going to drive since I drove to the airport.

I looked out the window when I felt a sudden urge to cut myself. It had been so long since I had cut or had the voices that it felt weird and uncomfortable.

You're worthless
Sam will never love you
No one will ever love you
You're just a useless piece of shit
Fat
Fag
Ugly
Worthless
Shit
Just die
No one would care if you died
Sam would be happy, he doesn't love you.

I grabbed my hair in frustration, the voices were getting louder and louder. I couldn't take it anymore.

"MAKE IT STOP." I screamed. Sam pulled the car over and looked at me with worry.

"Colby, what's going on." I was fidgeting in my seat not being able to take it anymore, all I wanted to do was watch the blood from my arm mix with my tears.

"PLEASE, MAKE IT STOP." I cried.  Sam looked at me like he had realized what was happening. When we became closer in highschool I had told him about the voices, and cutting he helped me through high school made me face him. I was still trying to fight off the voices. He smashed his lips onto mine, the voices went away and nothing existed except him and I.

I pulled away not wanting to get carried away, I looked at his eyes and I saw the blue come back to his eyes. Sam started the car and continued driving. The voices hadn't come back and I was happy they were gone for now.

We got to the hotel and parked the car, tommorow morning we would drive to our parents house separately and tell them we were gay. I wasn't completely sure what I was my parent's I had to say something or else the psychopaths would kill our brothers.

Sam got the keys to our room, we still hadn't talked since our little make out session, we've kissed before but it just felt different this time.
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ake-outed my bag on the floor and jumped on the bed. Sam locked the door and sat next to me.

"Colby, what happened to you in the car." He said worried. I sat up and looked at him.

"I just panicked, I'm scared to tell worriedly that I'm gay." I was lying, I didn't want him to worry about me, he's already stressed enough.

"Okay." He sounded skeptical but just went with it.

I got undressed and got in bed, I was exhausted. I'm happy that Sam was going to sleep with me.

I kept itching at my scars hoping that they would open up, but I knew they weren't they were already healed.

Tommorow would be the worst day of my life, there is no doubt about it. I just hope my parents don't hit me that much.

I moved around in the bed and heard something crackle. I lifted my body off the bed and grabbed an envelope. I didn't think much of it, someone could of left it. I opened the envelope and jumped off the bed scaring Sam.

"Colby what the fuck."

"A-a letter." He, she or it was in our room. Sam's face dropped and looked terrified.

I opened the envelope to see a picture of Gabe and Ben's face, they looked bloody and so beat up. I felt sick to my stomach, I showed it to Sam and his expression said everything.

I opened the letter it said

Sam and Colby, nice to see you back in kansas. Feels nice to be back home? Your brothers have a couple of broken bones, not that bad. Remember tommorow you will come out. Also I can see you where ever you go.

I gave it the next day and broke down into tear,s. I was angry, I don't care who it is, they will suffer when I see them. They have caused so much pain to me and Sam, they brought my demons back. What else could be worse?

If I were to put smut in this book would you guys read it?❤