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7.long wait

i,v been looking at my calling letter for the last two weeks,this holiday is definitely the longest i,v had to endure for the days i,v been living in this life so far,adding two more weeks is going to be a disaster,but all the same,who reports before the appointment day ?your guess is as good as mine.

Since grandpa is still in Israel, i see no harm in spending my holiday with grams and my lovely daughter Aggy,mum has agreed to bring her over today and i,m overwhelmed.

We seem to be getting along since she found out about my recruitment to the paramilitary.she believes its the best decision i ,v ever made,infact she promised to go to my former high school and clear on my behalf,isn't that a dream come true?imagine such news .

Everyone in the family knows that me and mama never used to see eye to eye,even some of my friend do,yet people say that wonders seize to end,they,ll never.

Luck is definitely on my side ,i think its because i saw a shooting star land the other day,this is is too much of a coincidence.now i believe that seeing one and your dreams coming true is no longer a myth,see my life.

I,m busy preparing super,matoke to be precise when i hear mama,s voice at the main gate,i think she exchanging a few hello,s with the immediate neighbor or perhaps buying a sweet for Aggy,could be one of the two,i reduce the amount of heat on the gas cooker so that i don't find my favorite food burnt to nothing and rush outside to meet them.

Aggy is beautifully dressed and i cant help but stare,her hair tied in a pony tail and her favorite cartoon character Sophia the first gown.she rushes to hug me with those tiny hands around my neck,the feeling is magical,mesmerizing even i'm relieved that i choose to bring her to this world,what would i be without her.

Grandma stares at the sight before her and i can tell that she,s proud of me,mama on the other hand cant hold her tongue she,s like.

"you and you calf there should spend a lot of mother daughter time ,you look so cute together ....enough of the reunion now.mend your ways and maybe just maybe she learn to call you mama instead of "auntie".

That hurts,its a joke in a way but we all know its the truth.

The truth always hurts,right?

I,m mute.

I don't know how to answer that back.

I wish i knew but i don't.

She,s my mother for crying out loud can't she see how much i,m trying?

As always grandma comes to my rescue and saves my sorry ass. she s done that since time immemorial .

"shes trying Agnes give her time"

That,s my cue to breath, its ll the motivation i need right now,how will i ever pay this woman,she,s been there for me through my worst and here she is still standing with me.

God remember this woman ,for me.

We pray for super and every one except Aggy eats in silence. the air is clouded you know the feeling its like we are all strangers united by one thing"hunger"but all the same life has to move on.

We watch an inspirational movie after super ,read a verse from the bible as is the norm of the house and say a word of prayer and bid each other goodnight.

As i,m busy changing Aggy,s diaper so that i can finally hit my pillow and drift to slumber. i cant help and hate myself for all those moments i missed the bible and prayer sessions with the family in the past.

Reality sinks in.

I missed the best moments of my life with my family due to ignorance and lust.

There i was sneaking ,partying,clubbing and doing all sorts of entertainment,now i know i was a lost cause.

I hope my own daughter doesn't follow in my footsteps. it would hurt so so much.

As i kneel down and repent one more time.i have only one request.

God guide my daughter,let her be a better HYBRID ,so that she may please you and not the world.

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