Crush - a Kyman fanfic

Temptation (part 1)

No ones POV:

Time has past since the two spent the night together, and it turns out one night can change a lot. The two seemed to have stopped arguing, possibly completely. They spend much more time together, playing cards, watching movies, playing video games; They've have conversations with one another in which they never thought they'd have. Though they are getting on so swell, there is still something they are hiding from each other. Something that puts too much pressure on one another's shoulders to let out. Something that's putting a big big boarder between a great friendship- they both crave something more.

Kyles POV:

Is this really it? Is this seriously the guy who I've known since fourth grade? The kid who's given me trouble my whole life.. I mean.. I don't know why, or how.. but.. I think what I'm feeling is.. I dunno... something I don't think I've ever felt before in my entire life. It's like.. being with..him..makes me feel so warm and I feel somewhat..safe. Even though it's just hanging out and stuff. When it's all four of us then it's just four guys hanging out, and it never occurred to me that I'm hanging out with Cartman. Because it's always been this way, just the four of us. But when I'm just with him.. when I'm alone with Cartman.. I just.. am I gay? Is this what I'm feeling... o-or is it because I'm just shocked that he's being good to me. His smile, his walk, his soft brunette hair, it puts a pit in my stomach just thinking about it. And that's a lot.. like.. nearly every day. I think about him a lot..
When we spend time together, he's all I ever care about- like nothing else matters. Gay or not.. I think that maybe.. maybe I might like him. But.. it's still a jump. A massive jump. We went from half tearing each other apart to hanging out on our own and just being together. The thing that worries me though.. the guys, stan, everyone at school.. they wouldn't get it. Kinda recently Stan even asked me if we were still super best friends.. which kinda made me realise.. have I seriously put everyone aside just to spend time with..well..Cartman? I mean, now that I can clearly look at the situation, Stan thinks that Cartman is taking his super best friend space. But... it's not like that.. not like that at all.. I don't see Cartman as a super best friend, n-not even as a "friend". Does this mean I.. oh boy. I think I like him. I think I like like Cartman.
What do I say? Do I drop it? Do I tell Stan? He'd understand.. right? But if I do..he'll think I'm gay.. which, I mean.. I might be? But.. *sighs* I'll tell stan when the time is right. But for now, zip it.

Eric's POV

Kahl Brroflovski.. that red-headed hothead. He's just.. he's perfect. This feeling.. it's too strong now. I've never felt so good in my life, I'm sure this weird, gross feeling has always sort of been there.. but spending all this time with him, being open with him.. it's like my stomach is gonna explode! God damn.. I mean.. maybe if I wasn't such a dick in the past.. this could've started years ago. I guess.. maybe..I was afraid? This is so gay, Jesus, I don't even think Kahl would.. feel..the same way. But it's too hard to tell, I mean...is Kahl gay? Is he? I don't know if I am.. but what I know for sure is that...I like Kahl. More than I ever liked Heidi or..or Wendy or.. or anyone.
What am I even gaining out of this..if I was to tell him..How would he react? Would he kick my ass? Maybe Kahl just wants.. a friend..
maybe I should just.. wait to see what happens. If nothing comes up soon...I'll know why.