Crush - a Kyman fanfic

Temptation (part 2)

Kyles POV

I need time to space out, these few weeks.. though they've been.. breathtaking, my head is full to the brim of so many things. I really really wanna tell Stan & the guys.. and I really wanna confess to Eric..but I wish it was that easy. On one hand, everyone hates Cartman. Everyone. They'd think I was crazy for going after him.. I think I'd lose a lot of respect for it. But on the other hand.. I could have something special. And maybe no one would really care if I was to like him. But..I dunno..all these feelings..that warm feeling when I'm around him..but also the gross feeling of anxiety about the truth coming out. And..metaphorically coming out. I don't think I can really know if I can determine my sexuality. All I know is that I like Eric, and that I've never really felt like this before, even though I kissed two girls and dated three in the past. I'll figure it out..
Stan: hey dude, you got a minute?
I look up, it's Stan. God.. I haven't talked to him in days.
Kyle: sure, dude.
Stan sits close to me on the curb on which I was sat on. It's kinda an awkward silence..
Kyle: so, what's up?
Stan looks me in the eyes. Oh god.. I think I know what this is.
Stan: Kyle, you're my best friend, and I trust you and I can tell you anything, right?
Kyle: yea, course, dude
Stan: and you can tell me everything too, right? You trust me, don't you?
Kyle: I mean.. yes! Of course, Stan.
Stan grasps me by the shoulder and turns me towards him gently.
Stan: is there something going on between you and Cartman? Like.. romantically?
I feel a hard pit in my stomach. Oh my god..
Kyle: WHA- C-CARTMAN?! No- what? That's ridiculous! Where could you get that idea? I-
Stan: Hey I didn't mean to.. startle you I just.. I've known you two since preschool. Most of our conversations make up of "Cartman did this" or "that fat fuck did that"
Oh god..do I seriously talk about him that much?!
Stan: I'm fine with you liking guys or just Cartman or whatever, and I don't wanna pressure you into telling me everything but.. I'm always gonna be your super best friend, and I want you to feel comfortable with telling me anything.
Kyle: well.. just..nothing is going on between Cartman and I. Nothing. He's an asshole and.. I don't even like dudes! A-And if I was into dudes.. there's no way in hell I would be into Cartman!
Stan: okay, dude, I believe you.
Kyle: you.. you do?
Stan: Sure. Just..I'm always here if you need to talk.
Kyle: yea, thanks, bro. I'll let you know.. if anything pops up. Trust me when I say that I will always let you know everything that's going on. And that there's nothing going on between me and Cartman.
Stan: sure, dude. I trust you.
We both hug one another warmly.
I exhale. Did I seriously just lie to my super best friend? I mean..technically nothing is going on between me and Cartman..but..why did it hurt so badly to tell him that..? God.. I feel sick.

No ones POV

Another day passes and Kyle can't take the heat anymore. He gets up, showers, throws on his outfit, grabs his bag and heads out the door. Today is the day he confesses. He needs to let Cartman know..how he really feels about their relationship.