Not all alone - Freddy Freeman

12. stars

A/N: for reference on what I changed as I'm editing the book I fixed the part where she says la perte killed her parents as when I wrote It I forgot the original intended plot for the book so basically disregard that part if you would like to go back to read that I encourage you to do so. also as it seems I am lazy I will not be extensively editing the book I'm just going to continue it with the edits I have made so far.

Freddy pov

She must be an angel. Though I'm not religious, nothing other than the heavens itself could have created someone as divine as she is. She must've fallen from the sky to this cruel and unforgiving world. She's so hurt that she's scared to let me in the walls she's built but that's okay. I just want her to be happy even if that means being with someone else. I know that I'm not perfect I'm awkward and weird and i have to walk with a freaking crutch so I understand if she likes someone else but really she deserves to be happy. I look up at her to see the stars held captive in her eyes as she stares into the sky. does she know she came from up there?

Liz POV:

Infinite.

that's how he made me feel, infinite. It's a wonderful feeling, his hand in mine or our lips crash into one another, the fireworks and sparks but I'm no good for him. I still am not in control and i don't know what ill do if he gets hurt. I'm unstable, and that's still dangerous for everyone around me. He knows some of what I've done but has no idea what atrocities I'm truly capable of. I'm probably selfish to be with him. He's such a beautiful person and makes me forget all of the bad things, but I know better. No one can erase what I've done.

"you better be keeping it PG because I'm back and I have funnel cake" Billy said.

"as much fun as im having, we should probably get back home." I say

"yeah you're probably right its getting late and the fair is about to close" billy replied.

So we began to walk my hand enveloped in freddy's, together perfectly as if they were puzzle pieces.

He deserves better. Someone who's soul is as pure as his not the murderer I am. My parents and neighbor's faces are etched into my head and haunt me when I try to sleep. It hurts to see the way he looks at me knowing the truth. How many I hurt. The ashes, the faces, the skeletons in my closet, the ghosts within me. The screams. But he loves me. Is it selfish for me to love him knowing all I'll probably do is cause him more pain? I am aren't I?

Freddy's pov:

As we reach the exit of the fair I look over at liz. She's still looking at the stars, worlds away from me. Her eyes filled with more than just the stars now but pain as well. I pull her a little tighter and give her hand a squeeze.

"everything alright?"

"of course they are." she replied with a gentile smile.

"what's on your mind?"

"oh its nothing now, really"

"you sure?"

"I'm sure" she responded but he could still hear the lie in her voice. "what are you thinking about?"

"how much I'll miss you when your back in Gotham... I really wish you could stay for a while."

"Freddy...I-"

"I know, I know you cant leave your 'new life in gotham' behind. but maybe just for a couple of days or if were lucky a week."

"as much as I would like to stay here I still don't know how to control my powers. yeah the power blockers help but I know they wont for long. when I was younger I had some similar to these and after a couple of days they stopped working. What I'm trying to say is, I don't want you to be around when I short circuit again."

"but I can help Liz. you shouldn't have to face this alone."

"Freddy I can't lose you too." she said stopping. by now Billy was out of earshot. "I have to figure this all out as far away from you guys as possible. I cant hurt anyone else... I just cant!" by now tears were running down her face.

"I can handle it liz! I'm not weak, I have powers too!" I say practically yelling in frustration

"you don't understand!" she yelled back

"what don't I understand!"

"How bad it really is!"

"well then let me be there with you, by your side! just let me help."

"36 freddy, that's how many people died because of me. My parents, My neighbors, fuck even my best friend. everyone I truly cared about are gone now, murdered by my bloody hands. If I lose you to, I- I don't know what I would do."