Fault (Demi Fanfiction)

Am I fake

After Nick left her at the alley, I rub my wrist feeling the pain. Minutes later, I enter my house and met her dog, Bella, waiting for her at the door. "Hey Bella," I said as I patted her head. I played with Bella until I heard someone called me. "Demi? Honey, is that you?" I looked up and saw my mother standing in front of me. "Hi mom." I stood and put my face on her cheek. But before I could kiss her, she took her hand and place it on my cheek. She look unto and gave a worried face. "Hunny, what happen? You look like you have been crying?" she said. I gave her a smile. "Ohh I just trip and it kinda hurt. You know how clumsy I am, but I am good." She look at me sceptically, then look all over my body. "Are you sure baby, you know how worried I am for you. You’re one of my baby girl and I don't want to see any tear on my beautiful daughter." I nodded to her showing her I'm fine. I then kiss her cheek. "I know mother. I love you." I smile at her and headed upstairs. "You want to help me make dinner," my mom yelled out. "I think Zac won’t allow it," I teased. "What I don't allow," my brother said as I saw him walk out his room. "Umm me cooking dinner," I said with a shrug. "Ohhh hell no!!! I love you sis, but you’re a horrible cook and Maddie will agree... Right Maddie!!!" he said. "Right!" I heard back. I laugh sarcastically and went to my room. I close my bedroom door and slam myself down on my bed. I shed some tear that build up throughout the day and laid there for hours. I went to my bathroom and look up the mirror. I look horrible and feel horrible. I wipe my tear. I was sick and tired being weak. It’s bad enough being torment from other student, but it's hard to believe your best friend started all of this. I remember how close we were and now he was gone. The only thing I have left from him was the necklace and Bella. I remember that I wanted a dog, and on my birthday he gave me Bella. I was so happy and hugged him so tight. Tear fell down on my face again. I want my life to be in control, but everything is crumbling down. I squat down and took the small box she hidden under the cabinet and took out the razor. I place the razor between my thumb and forefinger. I slid the blade down. I feel like I'm in control, it clear my thought of all the insults and memories that were running back and forth my brain. The feel of rush running down to you felt so food, but then I heard a knock on my door. "Demi dinner time," Maddie called. "Okay Maddie be there in 30 minutes, I gotta take a bath first." "Okay."

I headed down wearing my favourite comfy hoddie, a hat with my short short. "Hi guys, it smell nice," I smile. "Yup and it's not burn," Zac said. "Shu.t up, Zachary." "Never," he grin. "Okay, game time is over and let's eat," my mother, Dianna, said. We ate and had small talk. I felt depress, but I suck it up and try to enjoy the company.

I hid my feeling at home and now at school. All my happy go self is a lie. A fake. I am drowning and I can't go back up.