Fault (Demi Fanfiction)

Why?

Another day, another routine day. I walk down the hall head held high. For the very first time Nick didn't even bother me for the past 3 hours. Lunch time came and I didn't feel like eating, but I still fallow Marissa to the cafeteria. It was piece and quite until I felt the mystery meat on my head. "Karma a bitch don't you think Demz. You think today was your lucky day, guess not." I look up and saw Nick. He walk away leaving her with Marissa. "I'm sorry," I whisper. "Why did you said sorry and why did you did nothing? Demi?" I look up to Marissa as she continue to rant on why this or that. Marissa led me to the washroom as she help me clean up. "Why did you just sat there and do anything," she ask me. "You want to know why Mer. I did not do anything cause there's no point. If I fight back, he'll just make it worst. And even if I speak up, no one could hear me. My voice mean nothing.  My voice is invisible, I wish I was invisible." "Hunny, that's not true. How many time do I need to tell you that you are worth a ton? De-," "Mer, just stop! Stop lying! I don't believe in it anymore, I already accept my life to be a living hell. Maybe I deserve it. All the physical and mentally insult. Maybe I should expect that I’m not good enough. I just need to accept I'm worthless, stupid, a bitch, an ugly duckling. I am nothing!!!" I hysterically tell Marissa. "Demi." Rachel tried to calm me down, but I feel like falling apart. I fell down the ground as Marissa held me tight. I look up to her seeing her caring brown eyes. "Do you what's ironic.  He used to be my best friend. We were glued to each other and now look where we are. I used to believe that everything come for a reason and maybe if I wait, something good might come to happen." I scoffed then smile. "But, it's no fairytale where we could live happily ever after. Maybe Nick was there will no happily ever after." My heart was racing and I could feel like I could just explode. "Demi, hunny... please calm down... take a deep breath," Marissa calm voice echo to me as she held me tight and rocking me back a d forth. I could feel the touch of her finger on my cut wrist, but she still didn't judge me. She just sit there and tried to calm me down. I took a deep breath and look at her. "I'm so sick of waiting Mar, will it be like this forever. I cried so hard that it was hard breathing, but Marissa comfort help me cope. "You’re going to be okay, you’re in the dark right now. You just need to fight and go to the light. Fight your inner demon Demz." 'Light... Light...' was echoing in my head. Heaven light what I wish. Heaven light so I can't feel the pain anymore. She was here comforting me as her voice fade away from me. Until I heard her said. "How did it started anyway? Maybe if you know the problem is, there's a solution to fix it." I thought about it and it all make sense. It all started because of Joe. I hissed and cry. 'Why Joe? Why did you do it,' I thought.