Something new.

Reality

800 wrds

She began to farther away from the van deeper into the dessert farther away from her future and her past what the hell was she suppose to do?
Her phone was in her bag she shoved her hand deep inside and rummaged til she found the cool metal against her skin it reminded her of franks piercing she shivered.
She pushed the on button it brightened then it turned black. Great.
Dead, like everything else in her life. She was walking for about twenty minutes when it became dark she went old school and brought out her Walkman.
The last tape she had in there was one of criss angels she laughed at the memory god that was forever ago.
She wondered how he was doing if he still did magic or if he changed his life goal knowing his stubborn ass he probably hadn't.
She smiled.
She plugged in her headphones everything felt finally at rest except her Tinnitus acting up but hey things could've gotten worse.
Her boots started to kick up dust the boots these were franks.
She felt like he was a bad infection that was always there and you'd always remember it through thick and thin.
She placed a headphone in ready to place the other in she blasted mindfreak in one of them, a single gunshot rang through her ear.
She panicked and fell she grabbed at her chest and stomach wondering if she got shot, she didn't.
Then she remembered who had the gun.
He couldn't could he he never was but I mean gerard.
She started to cry she didn't wanted him to die even though he was crazy the part she knew didn't deserve that.
She curled in a ball and stayed there thinking of Ashley and Amy how she was going to miss their wedding, her parents how Ashley's practically raised her, Gerard how he had such a miserable life even before this, frank how he was so happy before gerard, then herself how she's probably going to waste away in a dessert alone and withering.
She decided this was her last attempt if she was going to die she wanted to go down with a bang (not like frank) and if she could do this then she was capable to do anything.
She began to walk her hands in her dusty sand covered jeans her headphones now both in her ears as she walked.
She didn't want to run because she knew that would waste away energy so she decided to walk.
It was about twelve hours of walking her body decided to give up on her but luckily about six more miles she saw lights casinos and hotels she thanked whatever god was there.
She kept walking on and on and on for two more hours til her body collapsed and she fell she relaxed and everything was complete stiffness she hated herself for it she was so close.
Her headphones puttered to the next track and played die for you she smiled and thought how iconic.
She woke up around midday the next day her eyes crusty and lips chapped she twitched her fingers to test if she could move she can.
She lifted up and ran all the way into the city she was overwhelmed by everything how big the places are and the lights. Everything.
She tugged on her hood becoming invisible she walked into the first motel she sat down in the waiting room there was newspaper in large red and black letters from kerang with a picture of Gerard and frank 'mcr superstars missing!' Constant reminder.
She dug out her notepad and saw frank wrote in very small letters and scratchy penmanship 'I want to marry her' she scoffed and tore it she didn't want him in her head anymore.
She scribbled down 'I'm mute, can I have a room with little money?' She walked up to the lady working at the desk and shook her head no and talked very slowly "you...are...in...CALIFORNIA...a...big..money...state" she laughed at herself she thought making fun of mute people would make her attractive it sure as hell didn't.
I'm mute not stupid she thought and walked out of the motel it started to rain. Great.
She walked to the back alley looking for an outlet to tell Ashley about her whereabouts and what happened.
She eventually found one and stuck the charger in the little section she sat behind a billboard covering her from the rain.
As she waited she saw a cat run by it was a tabby cat with very light green eyes it ran up to her.
It mewled and purred rubbing up against her jeans she smiled at least it was a nice cat, the only thing nice about this journey.
The cat crawled up in her lap and decided to sleep she didn't mind.
She almost went to sleep as well but not before she texted Ashley "hey, shit went down and I'm stuck somewhere in California help." And she sent an address as well then went to sleep with her new friend.