Natasha Romanoff X reader

I will give my life to you!!

A/N) I take requests if you people didn't know and I would recommend no smut also known as lemon but I will try to do everyone's requests😉
And again if you haven't seen endgame and want to this isn't the actual one, but it has probably some spoiler's so if you want to read it or haven't watched the movie and don't care if you have go ahead but if you do want to watch the movie then feel free to skip these one and come back to it at any time

    Natasha, Clint,and (Y/n) we're heading to get there infinity stone. (Y/n) and Clint we're in the back getting ready (mind you they are not naked and if you didn't think they were well there are some people out there who are pervs) and   (y/n) put her hand on Clint's shoulder making him look at her "don't let go of the things you have because you don't know what you have till it's gone, I will get your family back as long as you promise to protect what I love most" she said looking twords Nat making him do the same "yea ok" he responded not understanding what she meant. He switched Nat places so she could get ready. (Y/n) was currently righting in her new not book she got it had a white horse in a galloping pose with the sun shining in a grassy feald on the front and back. It wasn't a was a medium almost small but not quite there yeat book and she rote her Hart out on that first page. Natasha just looked over at her while putting her weapons in there place. Once she was done she walked over to you and spoke "you are staying here I don't want you to get hurt or worse killed." (Y/n) just looked at her covering what she wrote on the page and was about to speak but Clint beet her to it " it won't be necessary to tell her that she already knows" Nat looked at him then back at her,(Y/n) just smiled happily but inside she was braking because she knew what she had to do to make Shure Nat lived.

They finally reached there designation. Natasha was about to walk out of the ship but (Y/n) stopped her and hugged her dearly as if one she let go the most precious person to her would fade away at that vary moment and Natasha hugged her back with the same amount of force and depression. Once they broke away Natasha and Clint left. They fallowed the path to the entrance. (Y/n) left her book neatly on at the entrance of the ship and walked out of the ship knowing what she had to do. Natasha and Clint had made up they're minds about what to do and they rested there heads on each other's for head. (Y/n) walked past them with out them knowing twords the ledge she had her back facing the ledge but she was right there at it all she had to do was tilt her feet backwards and she would fall. She wasn't scared of dieing she was ok with it and ready for that because all those experience and training from H.Y.D.R.A had her welcoming it willingly with a smile. Natasha and Clint looked over and Clint had realization I his eyes about what she said and new what he had to do. Natasha started to run when (Y/n) tipped backwards Clint put his arm around Natasha's wast to keep the bargain the experiment gone rong girl. Nat was so worried she tried to get to the now ready to die girl who had a reassuring smile on her face she didn't use her weapon but tried to get desperately to get to the girl who was falling to her death "No (Y/N)" she screamed your name and cried into Clint's shoulder hart broken once she had calmed down enough she walked to the ledge and looked at the now lifless body of the person she held the most dearly in her hart. It looked like you were sleeping but you had blood coming your head which was laying sideways facing the arm that was facing up. The two retreated toe stone and walked back to the ship Natasha saw the book you were writing in before they got there and opened it to find her name neatly and in cursive on the back of the cover she then read the first page

Dear Natasha,

     I know you probably may be an emotional right now and I'm sorry. But it was my turn to save you. I didn't get to admit this while I'm alive and you might think it's for children but I love you and not in a family kind of way. I'm sorry for not asking you out on a date or to be my other half. But I know you don't know what that feeling you experience is called the feeling two Ware you want to protect someone, hold them dear and never let them go or want to make them happy and almost want to kill the person that hurt them but over all want to be with them romantically. I'm not a hero I'm just a sad excuse of a broken being repairer human but you managed to put me back together and I'm sorry for not fixing you when I should have. it brakes my hart to know that I never helped you, instead I just hurt you more wether it's physically or mentally. I always fail even when I try to do something right. I want you to promise me you will move on in your life find someone that can cherish all of you when I couldn't someone that makes you happy and can give you every thing you need because you deserve it the bad things you've done aren't yours anymore. One of my powers is that if I die I can take someone else's crimes upon my self with out question and I chose you because I know if you knew better you wouldn't have done those things and my last words to you are I love you with all my being and you have my hart in the palm of your hands. Do what you will with it love

                    Love,
              (Y/f/n) (y/l/n)

(Your first and last name)

Natasha cried knowing the only person she has ever wanted was (y/n). The only person she wanted to be selfish with and keep for her own and know she couldn't do that which made her cry harder.