Poker Face

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Sitting there on the floor, looking at the pictures and telling stories about when I was growing up, I look down at my hand and look at the beautiful wedding band. "Guys, thank you both for being there for me this week. I don't know if I would have been able to handle it without you. I know you both love me but I don't want you to think that you have to wear those bands if that level of commitment isn't what you want. I'll understand." I tell them. Happy is the first to speak. "This makes you our wife. We are all in this together baby. If you want a ceremony we can do it but either way, this is our commitment to you. There's no one else that we want." he says. "I agree with Happy. I want a family but none of us were ever really cut out for the white picket fence and shit. This relationship is on our terms. Do you want to be our wife?" Juice asked. "I do. I love both of you more than anything." I tell them. "Then there's only one thing left to do." Happy says. "What?" I asked. "Get our crows." he says and I look at him wide eyed.

Three hours later, I have Happy's crow on my left breast and Juice's on my right. "Juice, your turn." Happy says and I look at him confused. Juice sits down where I was sitting and I see Happy start applying a stencil to his chest over his heart. Looking at it, it's a lily flower flowing around my name. "Juice. Are you sure about this?" I asked. "Yeah. You have my mark, now I'll have yours." he tells me. Once he's done with it, Juice and Happy trade seats. Juice applies a stencil and starts working on Happy's tattoo in the same spot. Same tattoo of the lily and my name. "Guys, those are beautiful. Thank you." I tell them. I lean in and kiss Happy and then Juice before taking their hands and saying "Claim your wife."

After we all reach our release, we are laying in bed and I can't help but think about my grandma. She was in this same position as I am. Loving and being committed to two men. I guess I really am just like her. I feel Happy rubbing circles on my stomach while Juice is caressing my arm. I have the two most important men in my life right here with me and they just dropped everything to be with me when I needed them. I will never understand how a drunken threesome turned into something so sacred.

It's been three months since I lost my grandmother and we committed ourselves to being husbands and wife. Although, unlawfully, we are as committed as any legally married couple could be. I head to work like every morning but when I get there, sitting at my desk, I grab my trash can and start getting sick. What the hell? Karen comes over "Are you okay?" she asked. "Yeah. I don't know what the hell just happened." I tell her. About that time, I start getting sick again. "Why don't you head home. Get some rest." she tells me. "Yeah. I think I will." I tell her and head back out to my car. I stop at the drugstore and get a pregnancy test. I know I'm late.

Getting home, I walk into the bathroom and get sick again. Fuck. Finally getting myself together, I take the test. I wait the three minutes that it says and when I look at the test, it's positive. Fuck. How am I going to tell the guys? We never talked about kids and I couldn't even tell which one is the father. Shit. Shit. Shit. I sit on the floor and cry. I get up and head to St Thomas to confirm it. After seeing the doctor, getting the test done and the ultrasound, I am eight weeks pregnant.

That night, the guys come home and I have dinner ready. "Hey baby." Juice says and kisses my cheek. "Hey little girl." Happy says and kisses the top of my head. "Hey guys. Wash up, dinner's done." I tell them. I plate their food and hand them beers and get my own plate and a bottled water. "You okay?" Juice asked when he sees that I am just pushing my food around. "Yeah, just not feeling well." I tell them. "What's wrong?" Happy asked. "I was sent home early because I was sick. I went to the doctor and..." I say before getting up from the table and walking to the counter because I don't know how they will react. "I'm eight weeks pregnant." I tell them and look down at my hands so I don't have to see their faces. "Pregnant?" Juice says. I just nod my head. "I don't know which one of you is the father but if this isn't something either of you want..." I start but was cut off. "We're both the dad." Happy says. They both get up and come over to me and kiss me. "This is a good thing baby." Juice says. "Really?" I asked. "Really." Happy says and I feel all my stress leave.

The next day, I go back to work and Karen walks over and asks "Are you feeling better?" I just smile and say, "Yeah. Went to the doctor and turns out I'm pregnant." I tell her. Her eyes go wide. She knows about the three of us. "Do you know which one is the father?" she asked. "I think it might be a little more clear once the baby gets here of who it looks like but they both said either way that they are both the dad." I tell her. "Lucky whore." she tells me laughing. "That I am." I say as I rub my still flat stomach.