Poker Face

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Jamie is six months old now and the three of us have been on each other non-stop. We just can't get enough of each other. But I feel like Juice is distancing himself from me. Sitting out on the back porch, baby monitor beside me and a glass of wine in my hand, I stare out at the yard as the guys walk out. "You okay babe?" Hap asked. Not looking up, I say "I need to talk to you guys." They both take a seat around me and I look at Juice. "Are we okay?" I asked him. "Yeah. Why?" he asked. "You just seem distant here lately. Like something's changed." I say. He doesn't look at me. "Did something happen?" I asked and he still doesn't say anything. "Juice? Just tell me. What? Did you cheat on me?" I asked. "What? No." he says. "Then what is it?" I asked. "I've just been dealing with my depression a lot lately. Didn't want you to worry." he says. "Distancing yourself from me and not telling me makes me worry worse. What's been going on between those tats?" I asked. "Just worried that someday you'll decide you don't want to be with me anymore." he says. Kneeling in front of him, I say "Look at me. Juice, you and Hap are all I will ever want. You have no idea how much I need both of you. I love you." I say. "I love you too." he says. Hap speaks up, "We're a family brother. You need to talk, talk to us. We got you." he says, patting Juice on the back. "Thanks guys. I'm sorry I worried you, babe. I won't do it again." he tells me. Kissing him softly, I whisper, "I love you."

Things have been better these last few months since our talk and even though he's still been dealing with things, he has been talking to us and it seems to be helping. The guys get up for work and I have Jamie. His first birthday is next month and he's still as perfect as the day he was born. Looks like Juice and even acts like Juice. I run to the bathroom sick. This is the third morning in a row that I have been sick. Pulling out the pregnancy test that I bought yesterday, I take the test. Two pink lines. I can't help but smile.

Heading to the doctor's office with Jamie in tow, the doctor runs some tests and comes back to tell me that I am indeed pregnant again. She pulls the ultrasound machine over and puts the gel on my stomach. We hear the heartbeat before she moves the wand over and says "Looks like you're ten weeks along. Congrats." she hands me the ultrasound pictures before I leave with my prenatals and an appointment for next month. Walking out to the car, I pick up my phone. "Gemma? Can you keep Jamie tonight? I have something I need to do." I tell her. "Sure baby. Bring him on over."

After dropping Jamie off, I head home and put the two ultrasound pictures in small frames and wrap them. When the guys get home from work, dinner is done and we are sitting down eating. "What made you have Jamie go to Gemma's tonight?" Hap asked. "I wanted to give you guys something." I say. I hand them their gifts and they open them. "Holy shit." Juice says. "Is this?" Hap asked. "I'm ten weeks pregnant. But because we haven't been using protection, I don't know which one's soldiers took." I say. "Doesn't matter. We're having another kid." Hap says smiling. They both walk over and kiss me and we spend the rest of the evening talking before heading to bed where they show me how much they love me...twice.

The next morning, I head to get Jamie. Walking into Gemma's I see her with Jamie on her lap, feeding him. "Hey baby." she says. "Hey Gemma. I got something for you." Handing her a gift wrapped the same way and the one that I gave the guys, she hands me Jamie and opens it. Seeing the ultrasound, she smiles. "Another grandbaby." she says. "Yeah. We had talked about trying for Hap's baby once Jamie turned a year old but looks like fate had different plans." I tell her. "They happy?" she asked. "Oh yeah. They showed me...twice." I tell her and she starts laughing. "I'm surprised it took you this long to get pregnant again." she tells me and I laugh saying "Me too."