Poker Face

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

***Thirty-Nine Weeks Pregnant***

Sitting at home, both guys are there with me and Jamie is in the floor playing. I'm having contractions and the guys are staying close. "Shit." I say and Juice just holds my hand. "I called Gemma. She's on the way to get Jamie." Happy says. "Good. Thanks babe." I say. "I'll be back. I need to go to the bathroom." I tell them. Juice helps me up and they give me a minute. I walk into the bathroom and I find myself doing something that I hadn't done in a long time. Prayed. Please baby boy, please be Hap's. I can't lose him. I pray to myself. Standing in the bathroom, my water breaks. "Hap. Juice." I yell. They both come running with Gemma behind them holding Jamie. "My water just broke." They both smile wide and we head to the hospital.

Sitting there in the labor room, I'm listening to Happy and Juice talking back and forth. The doctor has come in and I'm at seven centimeters so not much longer but I still haven't said anything other than answering the doctor's questions. Both guys are sitting on the bed on each side of me and Happy steps out to get me more ice chips. "Alright. Spill. What's on your mind?" Juice asked. "I'm fine Juice." I say. "Bull shit. What's up?" he asked concerned. "I'm just still worried. What if Declan isn't his?" I asked. "He's not going anywhere baby. Don't stress." he says. Happy comes back into the room and I haven't been feeling well. After a little bit, I pass out.

Next thing I know, I wake up hearing beeping. "Hap. Juan." I say. "Shit babe. You're awake." Happy says. "What happened?" I asked. "You passed out. Your blood pressure spiked and they had to take Declan." Juice says. "What? Is he okay?" I asked panicking. "He's perfect babe. He really is." Happy says. The nurse walks in and checks my vitals before leaving the room. "Where is he?" Juice comes walking over and hands me our new son. I look at him and Happy says "Momma, meet Declan Ryder Lowman." I look up at Happy and he nods his head yes and I start to sob, holding my new son to my chest. Happy pulls me to him and says "It's okay baby. I'm not going anywhere. Never was." he tells me. I get myself together and look at Declan to see he looks just like Happy. "He looks just like you." I say. "Yeah babe. Thank you." he says, kissing the top of my head.

A little later, Happy is sleeping on the couch with Declan on his chest and Juice is laying on the bed with me. "You okay?" he asked. "I think so. I was so scared Juice." I tell him as I bury my face in his chest. "When I went to the bathroom, I prayed he was Happy's. Not that I wouldn't have been happy if he were yours but I knew Happy wanted this too. I was scared he'd leave." I tell him. "Baby, neither of us are going anywhere. You don't realize how much we love you do you?" he asked. "I know you both do but there's always that fear that one of you will leave." I tell him. "Well, we'll just have to remind you every day how much we love you." he tells me. Happy hears this as he wakes up and brings Declan over to us. Juice takes him and moves to the couch while Happy takes his place on the bed. "Baby, why are you still worried about me leaving? Do you want me to leave?" he asked. "No baby please. No. I don't. It's not just you. I've had this fear since we all started this that I'll lose both of you." I tell him. He pulls me close and says "You ain't losing either of us baby. We are completely committed to you and our sons. Nothing changes that." he tells me before kissing me and this kiss has more passion and more love than any kiss he's ever given me before. I curl into his chest and he just holds me.

I must have fallen asleep because I woke up the next morning and Happy is feeding Declan and Juice is walking in with breakfast and Jamie. He puts Jamie on the bed and asks "How you feeling momma?" I look at him and then Hap and say "A lot better. Thanks for letting me break down last night guys. I promise I'm okay now. I know you aren't going anywhere." I tell them. They both come over and kiss me softly. Jamie snuggles up to me and says "Mamama." I look at him and say "Hey my little prince. Miss me?" He nods his head yes and snuggles closer. "Wanna meet your brother?" I asked him and he sits up a little. Happy brings him over and he kisses Declan's head and says "Budda." I say "Yeah. This is brother." I lay Declan on my chest and Jamie curls in next to me. I have Happy and Juice sitting on the foot of the bed just watching us. I have all four of the boys that I love more than anything right here with me. Jamie falls asleep and Juice moves him to the couch and covers him up. Happy moves Declan to the bassinet and I start in on my breakfast.

Once we are all done eating, Jamie wakes up and Juice says "I'll take him back to Gemma's. I'll be back shortly." I kiss Jamie goodbye and Juice kisses me softly before leaving. Happy moves to my side and asks "You good little girl?" I look up at him and say "I am. Between you talking to me and Juice talking to me, I think I am. I am glad he's yours though. I would have been happy either way but still glad he's yours." I tell him. "Me too baby. Thank you for my son." he tells me. He leans down and kisses me softly and whispers "I love you so much."