ICE MADE ( On Hold )

Chapter 17

I toss and turn in bed all night unable to sleep. All I can think about is Grays lips. The way his hands slid up and down my body. The hungry way he'd kissed me, how roughly and passionately he'd held me. I stare at the darkness, a million thoughts going through my head.

I still can't believe James tried to force himself on me. For a second I had actually thought he wasn't that bad. If Gray hadn't been there I don't know what would have happened, just the thought of it makes me shudder in fear.

And then there was Sherry. Was she serious? Would she really do something if I didn't keep my distance from Gray?

I guess I was no better than her, just kissing any guy. I can't help the jealousy I feel just thinking about her and Gray. Wether they were dating or not I'm sure they were still messing around. And I had kissed him! And not just him, James too!

What was wrong with me?

I would've never done something like this before. Ever since I met Gray it was just one stupid mistake after another.

I wonder what he'll be like tomorrow. Would he be his cold cynical self again?

This time it was I the one who'd kiss him.

'I was drunk' 

I would tell him.

"I didn't know what I was doing'

But I did.

When I finally do drift off to sleep all I dream about is him.
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"Oh god. I'm never staying up late again when I have class the next day." Lucy groans through the kitchen as I sit at the table and sip my coffee. She rummages through the fridge for a bottle of water.

"No point in going if you're gonna doze off through the whole class." I shrug.

"I wish." She snorts. "But I'm already failing that class so I have to go. I'll be out all day though. I'm spending the evening with my dad and his girlfriend." She rolls her eyes.

"I didn't know your dad had a girlfriend." I say surprised.

"Neither did I. Until yesterday. Now he wants me to meet her so we can all be one big happy family." Her tone is mocking.

She looks really unhappy. I knew she didn't have a good relationship with her dad. And I suspected her mothers passing had something to do with it but she was very reserved and private about her stuff and I never wanted to prod.

"Whatever, she'll get tired of him and leave. She won't last, none of them do." She shrugs.

I'm really surprised at the cold uninterested way she talks about her own dad.

"Anyways I'll see you later." She adds and she's out the door.

I spend the rest of the morning doing chores, Levy is gone a little past noon. When I'm done cleaning I start on all the homework and essays I haven't done. After a while I find it hard to concentrate on my work. I mentally curse myself for not being able to stop thinking about Gray and his damn kisses. A buzzing from my phone distracts me from my thoughts.

Hi Juvia. How are you?

Its from Cam.

I'm good. What a surprise.

I add a smiley face at the end.

Do you want to have lunch today?... If you're not busy.

On cue my stomach grumbles. I guess there's nothing wrong if I go out with him for lunch, after all we are friends and I do need the distraction.

Sure.