Catch Me If I Fall |l.h

Chapter Three

All I see was black. As the rain start to pour down on my face.I hear the priest saying his prayers and the closing of the casket. The sorrow and sadness filled the air of faint cries. I look around to see my brother glance at me. He walks over to me and pushes me against a tree.

"This is all your fault!" As I slowly back away from the tree.

"What.I didn't do. I couldn't help. It's not my fault.." As I feel tears on the corner of my eyes and the shaking of my hands.

"All you had to do was not go to that fucking party! Oh no, you had to be the most popular girl in the whole school who gets whatever you want!" As he shouts in my face, I could feel people surrounding us in one big circle.

"Dad wanted us to be happy and safe that's all he ever wanted, for us to be successful.But you didn't care because you were to busy with living your life and partying!"

"No. That's not true!" I shout back.

"Well that's not enough for my fathers death! That you even witnessed and experienced! You could've done something about it!" he screams. "He probably would've been still alive if you weren't such a bitch!" As he pushes me I stumble over a root sticking up from the ground and land in a puddle. Everyone starts to surround me and I can feel the negativity in the air.

"Let's take her life, like she did with her father!" One women said as they all agreed. I was tied up and couldn't move an inch. All the sudden I showed up near a cliff edge.

"Calum please stop you know this isn't my fault!" I plead. He ignores me as he pushes me towards the cliff. I fall on my face and begin to cry.

"Please I'm begging, Calum stop!" He picks me up and I feel the force of my stomach being push as I begin to fall. I start screaming for my life.

I wake up screaming and breathing heavily. Calum stumbles through the door way and runs over to my bed and pulls me in for a hug. This always happens to me, nightmares constantly happening at night from my past. It's something that I couldn't control ever since that incident.

"Did you take your pills Samantha?" I look into his eyes and see the nervousness.

"Um. No.. I can't take them anymore! They make me feel like I'm fucking crazy Calum!" as my voice begin to rise.

"You're not crazy Sammi"

"Calum you can say I'm crazy bc it's the truth." I bring my knees up to my chin as a tears begin to fall down my face. He cups my cheek and slowly brushes away the tears.

"Sammi, you're not crazy and I know what you're thinking and it wasn't your fault."

"When will this guilt go away. I can't live like this Calum. I've been dating Todd for a year now and never slept over his house because of this. What happens if he finds out and breaks up with me because I'm crazy."

"Well if he breaks up with you because of this then he's just a dick and you deserve better. Second of all it takes time Sammi, trust me something or someone will take your mind off of this." I waited for a second and thought about it. Calums right. If he really cared about me he would stay with me and help me get through this.

"Thank you Calum for always being there" as I lean in for a hug.

"Anytime, and if you need anything yah know, I'm right next door."

"Haha okay and thanks again." I glance up to see the look in his face changed.

"You really need to take those pills Sammi, it'll help" he says quietly with his head down.

"I will. Don't worry"

"Okay good, goodnight I'll see you in the morning,"

"Goodnight Calum." I slowly get up and walk across my room to my bathroom. I splashed water in my face and felt the coldness drip down my face. I grabbed a towel and dried my face off. I grabbed my toothbrush and slowly put the toothpaste on and brushed my teeth. I shut the light off in my bathroom and began to walk towards the doors, where it leads to my balcony. I walk onto the wood and feel the breezy California air. The smell of the ocean and the waves crashing makes me so relaxed. I sit on my lounging bed and gaze up at the stars. I wonder if anything is going to be the same anymore? Am I going to get better and forget the past? These questions I ask myself all the time and I don't know the answers to. I slowly start to close my eyes as I curl up in a little ball silently falling asleep.

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I wake up to the sound of my cell phone going off. I feel a blanket wrapped around my body that I don't remember putting on. I hear seagulls and the waves crashing down onto the beach. I quickly get up and feel a sting in my head. I grab my phone on the floor and see Calum was calling me.

"Uh hello?" I said in a raspy voice.

"Um where are you? I thought you were driving me to school?" He said.

"I'm outside on the balcony I fell asleep watching the stars again." I told him.

"Oh, haha well get ready I'm going to take a quick shower and then we'll go."

"Alrighty" I stand up stretching my arms and open up the doors to go inside.

"We don't have time for dunkin so we might have to learn on empty stomachs" he chuckles, as I hear the shower being started.

"Okay now go take a shower bye." I said hanging up the phone before he can say anything else. I plugged in my phone and went into my bathroom and rinse my face off. I walk out and begin to find what I was going to wear. I looked in the draws and decided I'll just bum it today. I slipped my light colored Jean shorts on and threw my Pink baggy sweatshirt over my head. I walked over and slip my black flip flops on and put my hair in a messy bun. I walked over and took my phone off the charger and saw that Bella texted me saying she won't be in school because she's sick. I walked out of my room and down the stairs to grab a banana because we're not stopping to get food today. Calum skipped down the stairs and grabbed an apple and started heading for the door, as I followed. We walked out onto the doorstep to see it looked like it was going to rain out. Me and Calum both started to walk towards my car. I unlocked the car and slumped into the drivers seat sighing. I started the car and began to drive. I put the the radio on to break the silence but Calum turned it off for some reason.

"Why did you turn it off?" I asked.

"What's wrong Sammi?" He asked in a worried tone.

"Nothing I just don't feel like dressing up today, why?" I said lying.

"It seems like something's wrong or bothering you." As he twists his fingers together.

"Calum I'm fine, you don't always have to worry about me." I glanced at him.

"I do though, I promised to myself that you'll be safe and be happy, for dad."

"But you don't have too." I looked at him and I saw a look on his face that was unfamiliar to me.

"You know tomorrow is four months right?" He asks putting his head down.

"Yeah but we shouldn't let it get us down right?"

"Yeah but first lets get through this day, yeah?"I nodded as we pulled into the high school ready for the day to begin.

Hay well my chapters aren't that long whoops but I try my best! And I'm trying to update as fast as I can bc I have sports and school so:/ I hope you like the book and you should tell people to read it and follow me;) k? K -Kim<3