Heart and Seoul

Our Future

It's been a long time now, finals was already here and the new semester was heading near quick. I was in my first class looking through the pictures on my camera of Jungsoo  and I. I couldn't help but smile at how happy he looked in the pictures, they were real genuine smiles. We started to meet at the garden now on Saturdays, we used that day as our day to make memories and do whatever goal it was that we planned. This coming Saturday we're going to the art museum and I actually cannot wait.

  I could feel someone looking over my shoulder so I turned and saw Siwon peeking over. "excuse you," I smiled.

   He sat back and gave a faint blush, "s-sorry," he said, " the bright colorful pictures caught my attention,"

   "all you have to do is ask to look," I said.

   "sorry, I have a habit of not asking permission," he said with a crooked smile, "so...how has Jungsoo been?"

   "great, he's opened up a lot more to me." then I turned in my seat to face him, "but I feel I'm missing important things about him, or is it to early for me to know?"

Siwon became slightly nervous, "no, it's nothing like that. It's just that I can't say certain things because he wants to tell you himself when he's ready to,"

  I nodded my head, "seems fair enough."

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Later that evening I went to my dorm to call my parents, it took awhile to answer but my mom finally answered.

  "hey sweetie," she said.

   "hi mom, how are you?"

    "good now that you called," she laughed, "how's school?"

  "good, it's finals week,"

   "ah well you work hard missy,"

   I smiled, "I will, I also wanted to tell you about my friend Jungsoo,"

   "ooooh, Jungsoo huh did he try to kiss you?!"

   I giggled, "no mom, he's really nice. And he's different from the others. There's a lot he want to do in life and I'm going to help him,"

   "hm, so like a bucket list?"

   "yeah, exactly,"

    "he's so young though," she said, "usually when people think that way it means they have a life threatening illness like cancer.."

   I got quiet for a minute, "well, his mother died from Leukiemia.... And he said he Has a minor illness..."

   It was my moms turn to get silent, "Camille baby, I'm glad you made a friend and I'm glad you want to help him but I just want to tell you to not get to attached to him. I mean this in a kind sense because if he has a terminal illness to where he wants to do things before he die you'll be full of grief if he ever passes and finding new relationships will be hard for you. I only say cause I care. I had a friend who was in the same situation, he passed away and she could never love again. So you be carful with that ok hun,"

   "ok..." I said softly.

    "I love you sweetie. Keep up the good work,"

   I gave a weak smile, "love you to mom,"

  I hung the phone up and sighed to myself, she did make a point but I really do care about Jungsoo and his feelings. I laid on my bed and put a pillow over my face. Why must life be so complicated?

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Saturday evening Jungsoo and I made it to the art museum like we promised. The building had an ancient feel to it but it was still stunning in its own way. We walked in and was greeted to a spacious room with paintings and sculptures everywhere.