Billie Eilish :)

idontwannabeyouanymore❤️

11:27am

i wake up to billie gripping me, peep halfway in the toilet door and Asiam with his hands cupping his man tits in his sleep. typical.

i didnt bother waking them up, theyd just complain. i wanted a shower but mr Gus decided to place his drunk ass awkwardly in between the fucking room and the ONLY bathroom in this fucking suite. nice one.

i'm moody suddenly. i feel dizzy. i shot up, and went to pull down my underwear slightly so i could just test touch for any blood.

and guess what.
guess fucking what.

my fingers came out bloody.

FOR
FUCKS
SAKE

and the one thing i don't remember packing is fucking TAMPONS.
that means my socially awkward ass had to run to the shops in some loose baggy bottoms with extra underwear on and personally buy tampons.

yh satan just take me now.

i searched for my wallet, amd found it open with all my cash out all over the royal blue sofa opposite the bed. great, so now i not only have to humiliate myself, but i have to move my sleeping baby, move gus so i can clean up a little n pick up my change from the floor. i wish i never fuckin woke up.

i slowly slid my baby onto a pillow, and creeped up onto my feet. i tip toed to the bathroom, trying to step over the skinny walrus blocking the bloody way. i tickled gus slightly under the arm and chin, to make him shuffle slightly still unconscious. his head was basically the only thing blocking the way so i managed to glide him out of the door way.

i deserve a fuckin medal. i quickly turned on the shower just to wash quickly and get all the blood out, and within a minute i was ready to embarrass myself infront of loads of paparazzi and people.

hang on. why is it embarrassing? as a female, i need these products, why should anyone have to feel like they are about to loose everything just for doing a thing ever woman with ovaries has to do?

my attitude changed quickly and i marched out the door, with a proud grin on my face for the headlines about to be made. i want to inspire every female that has their period that being on your period is nothing but normal, and we shouldn't feel embarrassed about it in the slightest.  

i swinged the door open, left it to slam, which i thought twice about after, and jogged to the elevator, feeling guilty and stupid for just being a dick to my friends.

as the elevator opened to the ground floor, i strided like a model to the corner shop and waved as the paparazzi took their photos, they got another thing coming when i come out this shop. i picked about about 3 boxes of 20 pearl tampax and bought them, letting the cashier keep the 8 quid change (how generous of me).

i walked out and i saw so many girls around. i opened a box and the cameras were already shining. i stood there, handing out tampons. at first everyone was so fucking shellshocked, but then they started joining in and smiling. for about 20 mins, i stood outside the hotel handing out tampons to women, shouting a confident speech how we should embrace it instead of ashamed it.

when i was left with one box left, i has paparazzi left, right and centre. a crowd of about 300 gathered around me and wanted photos, and honestly i loved how i helped the people.

like my grandma says:
"it takes 1 to start a difference"

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as i entered the hotel room, i saw they were all in the bed watching Jigsaw. bruh they were at my favourite part after the first trap ( no spoilers here, even though its like 2 years old, i don't wanna ruin it :) )
they turned around and peep spoke with his hand on heart

"the tampon Messiah has returned" they all giggled and i shook my head with a stupid grin on my face.

"fr we proud and im well known as the guy who said 'fuck her on her period' "

he had a very good point.

we all laughed again.
we all belong together.
i feel each of us has a connection.
asiam got out his camera and took a picture of all of us laughing, before we even knew.

we set it as all of out background.

we have a show in just over a day, so we have loads of time to go shopping.

the only thing in this moment was x. he belongs here too. i cant wait to tour with him.

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5:18pm

there were violent knocks on the door.
"ill get it" billie spoke in her cute childish voice.

my gut was telling me to go next to her.

as drunk slurs could be heard from outside, Asiam tensed up.
as billies opened the door slightly, Asiam yelled "DONT OPEN THE DOOR". it came out more like a threat. we all jumped out our skin.
she slammed the door.
"ASIAM I KNOW YOURE IN THERE" we heard. we all looked over to Asiam.
"its my dad" he unproudly whimpered.
"please lock the door, ill call the police, he cant be near me, he'll kill me, he'll hurt all of you, he'll kill us like he killed Messiah" he had a tear in his eye but nothing but truth and seriousness in his face.

we darent open it.

"ill call the police" i said.
"Ciena, this guy is a criminal mastermind, i was close friends with Asiams brother and he was killed just because he didnt return home one night. he got drugged at a party, i was with him and i helped him home. theres nothing more than i regret than that. he'll send his gay gang on us if he even comes into a miles distance of a police siren." peep spoke, again with hurt and seriousness.

what the fuck were we meant to do. our eyes all laid on an invisible cube that made us all have eye contact at the same time.

fuck.