Billie Eilish :)

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Jahseh took us to his house, and gave us a room tour of his houseee. Me and peep shared a room and Azzy and Billie had theirs. i was highkey looking forward to thissssss, my goofy best friend and i were gonna have a sick timee.

im noticing my london ways are changing to American. we gotta change that, ima British batty gyal to heart forever. on that note, we all decided it was smoke time. Billies and I school is finished and we dont ever have to go back, however we might miss prom. i wanted to go with my princess and bring our favourite friends along, but with all this touring, fuck knows what's gonna happen. i miss my mum, her condition is getting worse and worse and i dont wanna loose her whilst im performing being happy. i just want my family back, before my dad was fucked, before my mum got ill, before my brother gave up hope, and before my family gave up hope on me. i started smoking weed at 13, and i even did coke once at 14. i was told it numbs the pain, but coke made it worse. weed chills me out when i need it and am in deep thought. nothing ever makes me feel happy apart from my second family, this family. my fans, my friends, and my beautiful girl Billie.

i rolled up everyones phattt asss blunts, because of my experience, mine were purely perfect. i passed out 3 (me, peep and azzy) as billie and x werent really smokers. i think billie didnt really like smoking and only does if she really feels like she needs to. x gave up smoking and went on to vaping.

as i inhaled and exhaled the holy plant, my vision became fuzzy, and i found myself stuck on the ground in a circle where we all faced each other. when i say we were fucked, that's an understatement. peep can take a lot, and he looked like a lost puppy of what i could see. my vision be like minecraft bruv. or terraria. fuck that, both of them combined. i felt the pang in my heart and my body went warm. i suddenly wanted shit, movement. i wanted Billie. i was hungry for her. i felt like a starved druggie from every drug known by the smartest shit in the universe.

i wanted her, in me, right now. i dont know if peep and azzy felt the same way, but if they did i feel sorry because the only girls here are loykey together so, lol on them. i knew peep would just call a girl and have phone sex or somethin, and azzy would just watch porn because he a little virgin saver. i had no clue if billie was a virgin, and i couldnt care less. she was my world that i wanna fuck the daylight out of.

i looked at her lips, and she looks at mine. i was shocked when peep offered her a hit of his with just his head, facial expressions and hands, AND SHE TOOK IT. she looked at me, teasingly, and took a long, hard hit. glided it out her mouth and went in her mouth. she blew it out in my direction and winked, just asking for more. i was so turned on, i felt like i might do something Billie didnt want, so i excused myself to the bathroom, still smoking. i sat down on the closed toilet seat and glared at the mirror, having a silent convocation with myself. i stared into my own green, blue, grey eyes with hate, lust and numbness, until i heard the soft knocks on the door. it took a few process' to understand what happened and i went to the door but my high ass tumbled down and folded into some next level ring girl + nun from The Nun and the demon from Ouija 2. i reached the lock pinch and twisted it, still laying on the floor. whoever it was, i couldnt see because i was in pure darkness with my lids hiding my static mind. i hugged their legs and they dragged me to my room. i then smelt that smell. it was peep, and he was helping me not die. THANK YOU HUN! i tried to speak but i couldnt. i think my batch got spiked with something. i gradually lost feeling literally and went coldish. i felt dizzy and was hearing the way my mind was talking. i couldnt open my mouth to speak or open my eyes to see. i felt like a dead body which matches my dead soul. i felt the sinking of my body in a bed, and then covers over my body. i felt a kiss on my forehead and i heard tip-toed rectangular steps, and then i knew it was Gus because of his childish but cute behaviour. i was smiling but i couldnt feel my facial muscles moving. i felt tired, and i fell into a deep coma. "night night babygirl" i heard billie say to my ear, stroke my hair and then my cheek in one glide, and then kiss the tip of my nose. 𝘕𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺 was all i could respond to in my head.