Billie Eilish :)

im sorry.

im a fucking awful person. i promised u guys something and failed.

Asiam, in the story, is my real life best friend. throughout the few weeks, we have both been struggling to get through life, for personal reasons. Monday, his mother took him to the hospital for bad self harm, and he promised me he would be back. its currently Saturday, his number has been cut off and he hasnt been on any social media or anything else. ive asked all his friends and they have 0 clue whats happened. he said his mother was tryna send him to a mental institute, which he responded in wanting to run away.

to put it short
he is either dead as he killed himself, in a mental institute where he cant contact me and could be in a lot of pain, or a run away somewhere i dont know. i cant write about him. it hurts too much to even think about him right now, let alone him with people i deeply care about who have passed away like Peep and x. im sorry, im a let down and a fuck up but i really cant do a lot right now.

im really sorry.

i wrote that yesterday. i realised that by doing this its like he is still with me. ima continue, im gonna try n get loads done 💗