Poetry of thought

.Conflicted.

What was I thinking?

I'll tell you what I was thinking.

I thought of the clouds.
And how the stars never shone through.
Almost like we were hidden from them.

I thought of how similar bodies can be.
Though wildly different,
We both twitch and shake for no reason at all.

I thought of time
How little was left for you here
How little I had left with you.

I thought of mistakes
What I've done in years past,
And what I was doing just then.

I thought of actions.
Previous and possibilities.
"Don't do it, I wont stop you."

I still want it.
And it scares me.
Everythings a mess.
I need to go away.