Billies p.o.v Is she really about to meet up with 7? While I'm performing? I get why she's mad but she really gotta do this to me? Fuck dude I really fucked up... I let out a frustrated sigh as loud as possible In the hotel room . "You good bil?" Fin asks sitting next to me " I really messed up with hope like bad" I say on the brink of tears. He furrows his eyebrows and I explain "Me and her had a unofficial/ official thing and I hooked up with someone and hope found out about it and she's meeting up with 7 today and she's gonna do God knows what with him and I'm scared as Fuck because I really really really like her fin more than I have liked anyone in my whole 17 years of life." I say now fully sobbing in fins arms " is she gonna see your set tonight? " he asks "Yeah I think so because I know 7 is gonna be with hope and he still supports me so I'm assuming so.." I say slowly calming down " when you sing I love you make sure you look right at her and make sure she knows. " he says hugging me while I cry
Hopes p.o.v I put my finishing touches on my outfit for day 1 and damn I look good asf. Everyone gathers in the living room and we are just waiting for Rickey to hurry up. He comes strutting down the stairs. "I'm assuming that we are ready to go." J says laughing and we all head out of the house and get in the car. Again I'm in the passenger seat and Rickey is driving we play music and than bbh by Billie comes on and Rickey goes to change it but I stop him and let the song play through. I take I'm the words and start singing "Pretty moments sew sitches into all your bitches broken hearts ." I sing lowly but the rest the car ride is all of us jamming out and being literal crackheads *1 hour later at Coachella * We walk in at about 4pm so we can have good lighting for pictures yes we are that group . "Im going to grab a popsicle I need a pic." I say running over to get one . The lady hands to me and I go back over "Someone take a pic of me while this is still frozen" i say handing my phone show Maddie "GO AWF SIS" I hear behind me and I laugh and 7 who's behind me. I run over to him and wrap my legs around his waist as he picks me up. "How you doing beautiful" he says hugging me back " Im good clearly excited to see you " I say getting down and i feel like I dropped ten feet to the ground holy cow this guy is tall asf "Ok before we finish our convo I need to make a ig post" I say as he laughs
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@hope_jamess chella day 1 📷 creds to @itsnotmadssmith Liked by 1,754,195 people @mtvsevenamp you look even better in person 😍 @pimpdaddybil mama 😍 @wherearetheavocadosss I saw you and 7 👀 @bhadbhabie that's my girl😍😍😍 @blohshy you seeing Billie tonight? @hope_jamess @blohshy yes
I put my phone away and focus my attention back to my group "I got us all artist passes" Sabrina says "How the hell?" I ask " they want to butter me up so I preform here next year. " she says handing me and 7 each pass *15 minutes before billie* Me and everyone are backstage 7 got us backstage to see her preform which I'm kinda scared of because I still miss her "WELCOME BILLIE EILISH" a voice said and 7 wraps his arms around my waist and I turn so I'm facing him and I wrap my arms around his neck. I look up at him and he leans in and out lips connect and it doesn't feel the same as her but it's still good nonetheless "WHAT THE HELL!" I hear and I quickly turn around to see Billie standing there. "Billie -" I was cut off by her being told she needs to go on and i just stand there with 7. She's performing like nothing happened and honestly I'm in such awe of her. "Hey hope" I hear and I see tana and all of her friends " OMG HIIIII I MISSED YOU GUYS" I say pulling them all into a group hug. Billie is currently singing bellyache and me and all the girls are screaming it as loud as possible just enjoying the music. A slow melody starts playing and I realize it's "I love you" my body tenses up. Billie looks right at me "I can't escape the way I love you" she sings right to me not breaking eye contact and I feel like I'm gonna throw up "I'm gonna be sick" I say running away and my group and tanas group runs after me I get dropped by Maggie "are you ok?" I just run by " HOPE DON'T LEAVE HER ALONE. " I hear fin yell in the microphone and I start crying and running faster i feel A manic episode coming and Fuck I haven't had one in almost a year. "Hope?" I hear Dani say and fans just tells her to come with us. Everyone gathers a round me because people keep stopping me and I need to throw up. I find a patch of grass and let it all out and everyone comes to hug me and I hear her call me "No no no no no no no someone tell her that I can't talk to her right now." I say leaving the festival and getting into a uber with Dani, Ashly, tana , Isabella , Maddie and Sabrina. We just go back to the airbnb
*back at the house* "I already know she's gonna go manic and no one can help her when she gets like that she doesn't let anyone help her." I hear my friends say while walking out of the room with a blanket over my head . "I'm ok guys I'm not gonna get manic I'm fine." I just lay on the couch in my phone and I hear a knock at the door as I'm almost asleep "She can't see you right now." Tana says " please let me talk to her I need to know she's ok " Billie pleads and I get up from the couch letting the blanket fall around my feet. "The Fuck you doing here." I say with no emotion " Hope please talk to me. " she says grabbing my hand and I step outside with her shutting the door behind me "There's nothing to talk about." I say blankly " I need you baby " she says "And I needed to not get hurt but clearly that didn't happen." I say crying " Please hope don't leave me mamas I need you in my life... I love you" she says crying "I-i-i can't d-d-do this " I say running inside sobbing uncontrollably. "She told me she loved me" I drop to my knees and sob harder than I have ever "Guys..." I say and they all look at me " Please don't let me go manic.. If I slip into that state I don't know when I'll come out... I ducking love her but she's too good for me. " I say and the bring me to my room and everyone lays with me and I just sob the entire night until I finally go to sleep. I love her I'm just not good enough I'm worthless and once she knows the real me she won't love me.
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