ps i love you

well fuck

I just sat there thinking about the day and just how flat out confusing it was.

*****

its been two days since me and louis got together and its been great! me and niall have became closer as friends and it turns out he's a pretty rad dude. he's  super funny and really chill and I love that in a guy. he's one of my new best friends for sure. me and Liam have became good friends and he's not as shy around me and he's a real smarty,like literally. and cynny,well she's the annoying little twerp she is.

"hey Liam throw me a Pepsi!" I yelled from the living room couch.

"got it!" he yelled back. we were watching some creepy pasta videos because yeah, even if were like twenty were still obsessed. we were in the middle of watching the ticci Toby video  when there was a knock on the door.

"Toby!!!" I yelled sneaking my way to the door.

"uh what?" ohhh niall, that makes sense.

"oh nothing,come in." niall opened the door with a nervous smile.

"hey niall." I waved in a random direction, I was way into that video.

"uh hey can you come over for a few I need to talk with you, just for a minute."

"uh oh yeah sure." I said. "hey pause that video" I said walking out the door. when we got to niall's room I plopped down on the bed and looked at him.

"so.... what did you want to talk about?" I asked.

"oh, uhh I just uhh." he stuttered scratching the back of his head. I could tell he was nervous.

"well I know how your with Louis and you seem really happy."

"yeah yeah what's that got to do with it." I was getting impatient.

"hold on let me finish. well it seems that I've grown quite a large liking to you and, i-i think I l-l-love you."

well fuck.

"uhb what?" I was lost for words that's all I could get out. niall frowned.

"nothing, its stupid." he said just above a whisper. man I felt like shit.

"hey, no its not its okay." I stood up for a few seconds and he started walking towards me, I didn't know what to think. at first I thought to slap him but that was gone when niall came close to my face and whispered "I'm sorry" before crashing his lips to mine.

Louis POV~

I was going to go stop by kirstens flat to tell her how my moms visit went it sucked shes been in America so long. I knocked on her door and waited for someone to answer.

"come in!" I heard cynnamon shout. I walked in and saw no Kirsten.

"oh hey cynnamon hey liam. where's Kirsten?"

"she went to niall's, he said he had to talk to her. I don't know." Liam replied.

"oh, alright thanks see ya later." I said walking out the door and to niall's. i didn't think about knocking so I just walked in and what I saw left me:

50% pissed

10% confused

30%upset

& 10% wow

my jaw dropped and they both jumped back when they heard the door open. Kirsten looked over at me and she was shocked her eyes filled with confusion and sorrow. niall was more surprised than anything. I turned and ran down the hall,tears daring to spill. I heard Kirsten calling my name but I didn't care I just kept running. I got to my own apartment building and walked in my flat. I closed the door and put my back against it and slowly slid down and began to cry. I honestly thought she loved me but..... I guess I thought wrong.