It's A Girl (Ed Sheeran) [EDITING]

Chapter 17

"Talk about what?" Ed asked me, leaning back into the sofa.

"Don't play that game with me, you know what I'm talking about. Why are you so distant, so out of it? You're acting like we've never been together before but newsflash sweetheart, we have a three year old child made between us! Why are you pushing me away and acting like you don't love me anymore or you don't know me, like you don't want to be here, because if you don't then you can leave or I'll leave. I may eat my words later but for now I won't," I said out of anger.

"This is my house too, we bought this house together if you don't recall. And I'm not acting distant, I'm the same Edward Sheeran that loved you before tour and the same Edward that first walked right back into this door."

"Bullshit, that is a lie and you know it," I screamed, getting angrier by the second.

"It's because of Katherine okay?!" Ed screamed louder than me, standing up.
I stood there, shocked. I stared at Ed and his eyes were as and open as mine. He was probably as shocked as much as I was. I could feel the tears forming in my tear ducts the longer we stood there in silence. So many questions ran through my mind.

"What? Are you dating her now or do you love her more? Why is it Katherine, what about her makes you so distant?" I barely got out as the tears threatened to roll down my cheeks.

"No, are you crazy? I will never love her nor will I ever date her. It's what she said about slowing down and you agreed with her. When you agreed with her, it made me feel bad, like you didn't love me or want me here anymore."

"I never actually agreed with her because I don't want to agree with anything she ever says but I did think about what she said and I see where she's coming from. I still love you and I always will! That's not what I meant and you know it."

"Courtney, thinking about what she said though. Just take a minute and think about how she said that I'm right here in front of you, back in this house, laying in the same bed, holding you, hugging you, trying to love you, but you don't want a relationship. I don't see why I even need to try anymore," Ed yelled, getting frustrated.

"I didn't say I never wanted a relationship! You twisted my words around and threw the new ones in my mouth."

"Well I don't feel like fighting or talking about this tonight so I'm going to bed."

"Ed, this conversation isn't over yet. We still need to talk about this and work through it," I said, crossing my arms.

"It is for now. Goodnight, I'll see you tomorrow," Ed said, walking up the stairs and to the bedroom.

I let out a scream, hoping it would stop the tears that were threatening to spill out and make me feel better. Sleeping in the same bed as Ed was crossed off my list of to do's for tonight but I did need my clothes to go to bed so I walked upstairs into my bedroom and grabbed a pair of cotton shorts and a sweat shirt to change in to. I wanted to get away from Ed as fast as I could because when I walked in the room, I glanced up at him and saw him stretched out on the bed with his eyes closed and arms in the air with his fingers in his hair while salty tears rolled down his cheeks. My heart broke at the sight of that and I quickly turned off the light and closed the door, making my way down to the couch and changing right there in the middle of the living room before turning off all the lights and wrapping myself up with the huge blanket that was hanging on the back of the couch.
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"Shelby, how about we practice your letters now, you already know almost all your colors."

"Okay mommy, what ever you want to do," Shelby smiled at me.

We were sat on the living room floor with cards that had different shapes, letters, numbers, and colors laid out in the middle of us. Ed was upstairs messing around with his guitar that we could faintly hear downstairs.