Moving Forward

To Brayonna ..

Brayonna,
wow .. i don't really know what to say. i've never done this before; standing in front of people, speaking about how i feel while everyone feels the same way. you were such a blessing to have in my life and i'm so happy i was able to spend the time with you that i had. you were such a positive impact in my life and i can't even pile up the words to thank you for everything. one of my last memories with you is a positive one; you walked into the dining area of the cafe and yelled my name across the room with a huge smile on your face. i walked over to you, said hi excitedly and you gave me the biggest hug. i never knew i needed that hug, but i did. you were one of the people who helped me feel better even when i felt like my world was falling apart under my feet. you always picked others up, even if your brain had unwanted visitors and you didn't feel the best about your day or yourself; you put others first. you have such a kind soul, it always made my day brighter and i know i'm not the only one that feels that way. you're so beautiful and inspiring, i can't believe you were taken so early from us. it's so weird not to see your posts anymore .. talking to you, even if they were just text messages, made my days. you were always so uplifting. you became a sister to me, and i'll forever appreciate you being in my life.

— hey guys, it's Ash. i know this isn't the most positive thing to publish but i feel like i should. on May 7th, the world lost a beautiful person inside and out. she deserved so much and it's a shame that she was taken from us so soon. so i wrote something, it was for the funeral but i feel like i should share it with you guys since i never read it there (i was sobbing instead .. it was my first funeral and open casket at that). so i hope you guys like it, i'm sorry it's so down ): i'll write more soon. see ya!! —