i get that i'm a gemini. i get that sometimes, people don't see the best in us. i know it's just a zodiac sign, and that's EXACTLY why i'm writing this. horoscopes are fun, yes, but you can't let them define any of your relationships in life. you can compare your zodiacs to others and it's fun but you're way more than just that. you're more than when you were born, or what time you were born at. you're more than the month your birthday lands in and you're more than where you grow up. you're more than you could ever know and i know it's hard to remember that.
today hasn't been the best. i'm currently waiting for my therapist to call me so we can talk for an hour, since quarantine has us all cooped up at home. i'm never really alone so that makes it kinda hard. it hasn't been the easiest but i'm trying. being stuck in your head but surrounded by people isn't always fun. i'm trying to be better as much as i can for everyone i care about.
i want to be better, just in general. i feel like growing and trying again matters. i feel like getting myself back out there will be good for me, but it's scary. it's frightening to know that you can put your all into someone or something and end up being destroyed by it. trust is harder to give than it's earned, and that's why people put up walls. they don't want to be shattered again. they're waiting for someone to hug them and help them hold all of their pieces together again. they want to find the happiness they've found in themselves and share it equally with someone, friendship or more. they want to be happy with people too.
i want to remind you all that you're important. no mater if you're gay, straight, queer, bisexual, pansexual, poly, or just romantically into people: YOU MATTER. waking up to start your day whether you're on top of the world or internally drowning beneath the waves matters everyday. you can keep going. you can keep striving. no matter the obstacles, you should try to keep going. effort matters way more than worrying about coming out on top or fame or acceptance from society. you need to see that you should love and accept yourself before you can decided to strive in the way you should and grow as a human being.
you're loved and appreciated everyday.
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Moving Forward
Poetrythis is a new chapter of my life. i'm becoming happier with where i'm going and who i'm going to be. this story will bring the ups and downs of moving passed difficult times and still working through them. i wish you all a good read. thank you (:
