Fish Lips (LokixReader)(Soulmate Au)

Chapter 19

I couldn't breathe. My body was yelling at me to stop.

I was gasping for air.

Running to my room as these fucking flowers almost suffocated me.

"(Y/n)?" Thor voice says as he sees me running.

"Leave me alone," I sob as I try to sprint past him. His arms wrap around me he tries to stop me.

"What's wrong?!" He asks, trying to overcome my cries.

"Let me go!" I screech as I try to push his arms off me. The image of him kissing her was burning into me. I wanted to die.

I was going to die.

If I'm going to die I might as well end it early. I couldn't do it. There was no hope for us.

"(Y/n) stop!" Thor's voice booms. I grunt and pry his arms off me with some thick vines. I hold him in place there as I stumble inside my room. I slam the door shut and bend over in a coughing heap.

When I regain some breath, I force myself up and go to my closet.

"Where is it?!" I scream as I rip down the stupid dresses. I see my outfit I wore when I came and look through it.

They took my fucking gun....

I open the suit and look in the hidden inside pocket. Taking out the small knife.

"(Y/N)!" Thor's voice booms as he pounds in the door. I cover it with only the trunks of trees.

"Thor!" I hear Friggas voice say. I drown them out as I look at the glinting blade and at my exposed arms. Should I?

I was going to die, it was inevitable. There was no use of living.

"(Y/N) DO NOT DO ANYTHING STUPID!" Thor yells. I think of the past. Was I willing to leave everyone at home.

"You're going to (y/n). If not by this then by your weak lungs," I tell myself.

I snap my head the loud sound and walk out to see my door being broken down by Thor.

"Don't!" He grits as he looks through the hole the size of his hammer.

TW//

"I'm sorry" I sob out. I take the blade and glide over my skin. I grunt from the sharp sting and look at the blood slowly come out, first small dots no combining and slowly going down my arm.

"(Y/N) NO!" Thor screams as he pounds the hammer onto the door. I was going to die....

"Tell him I love him," I whisper to Thor as I switch the hand my knife was in and do the same to my other arm. I drop the knife and look at the mess I had created.

In a few moments I drop to my knees as well. Feeling lightheaded.

I lean back into the bed and slightly smile....was this finally the end? I look over with my blurring vision to see four people come in. Frigga, Thor, a healer, and....Loki.

"Don't save me....." I whisper as my my vision fades into a dark abyss.

*Mini Timeskip* //TW END

"She's awake, your highness, I recommend total bed rest," I hear the healer say. I slightly whimper and open my eyes. My body was in a numbing pain.

The healer walks through the broken door and I look at the 3 people in front of my bed. I look down at my arms to see the left scars.

Th door was still broken, I was covered in my own blood, so I wasn't out for long.

"I told you not to save me," I grit as tears blind my vision. Why wouldn't they let me die?