Winter Love

Chapter Four

(Chapter Four)

This time you actually talked to me and Haley. 

I swear I ran out of breath because I was laughing so much. You had such a great personality. That just made me fall for you more. Haley kept trying to bring up my feelings for you, but every time I stopped her, I didn't want you to know, not yet at least...  

We had actually started messaging each other more on skype, sending smiley faces back and forth, sending each other lyrics to songs, and just talking. But I still knew you didn't feel the same. 

 All of us stayed up all night, talking to each other on skype. 

I couldn't stop myself from smiling whenever hearing your voice, or your laugh. 

I thought it was about time to see if you felt the same. Even though I know I wouldn't get the answer I would be hoping for, I had to do it sometime. 

Without showing my feelings through skype, I told you and Haley I would be back in a second. I walked out of my room, sat on the porch, and let my head fall into my hands. I could feel my eyes start to water. 

I felt the winter breeze flow through my hair. I looked at the temperature and it was 28 degrees outside, and I had no jacket on. 

But I didn't care, I needed some time to think about this, think about what I was going to do or say. 

I start feeling a buzz in my lower pocket. Haley is trying to call me. 

I answer it. But before I could say anything, she speaks before me. 

Haley: Where are you at? 

Me: (sobbing noises) I'm outside, I needed to take a break. 

Haley: Are you crying? 

Me: No....

Haley: Yes you are, I can tell by the sound your nose is making. 

Me: (silence)

Haley: What are you crying about?

Me: I'll probably tell you later, I don't want to talk about it while Phillip is skyping you. I don't want you and him to have to worry about it... even though Phillip probably won't care anyways...

Haley: Don't say that, and okay, just come back to your room and talk to us.

Me: Okay, I'll be there in a minute.

*Call ended*

I stayed on the porch for 5 more minutes, watching the snow fall as so many questions kept flying through and throughout my head. All these questions I needed answers to. 

I needed to know if you felt the same, and soon, because I couldn't hide my feelings anymore, I wanted to be able to express them. 

So later that night, we all were getting tired, so we hung up the call. And I texted Haley about why I was crying earlier.