Kalopsia

Chapter 8 The Sadness I feel

       Honestly, sometimes I feel as if I am an open wound looking for a band-aid. When the topic of my father or my brother arises to the surface, I immediately start to feel sadness pumping through my heart. Sometimes I try to be tough or to appear strong in other's eyes when I just want someone to talk to. I sound pretty depressing right now huh? My so-called "friends" were once introduced to this side of me but acted as if they never saw it. I tried to ask them for help, but being shoved aside for comedic purposes. Most of the time it isn't anyone's fault for me being the way I am. It's just that I am the problem. I feel like talking to people might actually help but I just act dumb.

       I come back to my senses realizing I still am with the company, and shove down any emotions boiling up inside me. It is now 2 in the afternoon, still sunny but windy. I say "so why do you take such interest in me, sorry if that sounds weird.." he looks at me pauses then says "because I want to know how a commoner lives, and if there is more to life then just money." I was very shocked at what Meraki just told me, very. I asked him if anyone has ever shown him that, as we walk down the streets of Seoul. He told me when he was younger than a girl that became very dear to his heart showed him, then disappeared. I felt bad for him knowing my situation was similar to his. We head down to a live performance that was going on in the street. For the first time, I have seen him smile and laugh. It was beautiful. I was wearing heels and not realizing I stepped in a crack in the ground about to fall when Meraki comes behind me and catches me. He smelled like a sunny day as if I was smelling flowers that were out of this world. So far I was honestly having a great time I didn't feel as lonely anymore because I got to know him. After he caught me we sat down in a cafe and had a deep discussion. "I have to say you are pretty dang cute," Meraki said. What? Is he talking to me? Must be joking around... though I do enjoy the compliment. "Thank you, you aren't so bad yourself" he laughed.

       By the time we finished our conversation, it was 8 at night. I learned that he was actually funny, behind that tough guy act is actually a kind boy. His driver drove me home. I thanked him for today, feeling very special. Right as I was about to shut the car door he says "here" and plops this box in my hand. He told me that he really enjoyed today and that he wants to continue to be my friend. I felt so happy. He said he was gonna start getting me to and from school, I told him he didn't need to but he was persistent. He watched me walk in my apartment complex, and I ran u to my balcony just to wave goodbye to him. An hour later I got into bed about to go to sleep when I received a text from him. "Hey Eun you can open the box now, see you tomorrow :-P." I had totally forgotten about it, I turned on my light and opened the box. To my surprise, I found a very expensive dress with some jewelry and a note that said "my father is throwing his annual company party, so your my date ill give you some shoes when we get close to it. The invitation is at the bottom." I was dumbfounded. The party was in three weeks. I went to sleep confused but let myself rest. 

       I woke up on time, got ready for school headed out to see his car and Meraki smiling at me. I see him differently now. I think I might like him.