billie eilish imagines

•anxiety•

WOAHHHH AN UPDATE WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK

HI, IM STRESSED :)))

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Your POV

I can't believe I'm in this situation and I'm freaking the fuck out!

Ok. So basically, I'm at a Billie Eilish meet and greet by myself, and I feel like I shouldn't have came by myself, I don't want to have an anxiety attack in front of her, that's embarrassing.

But I'm up next and really hope I can hold it together.

Heads up, I didnt.

As soon as I step up there i literally can not breathe, so when Billie says hi, I just squeal

Omg what is wrong with me?!

She just smiles and asks me if I'm okay, and I just nod quickly, I literally can't talk right now and this is not how I expected my first time meeting her to be...

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Billie's POV

Aww, this girl is so cute, she's super nervous, I can tell, but the squeal she just let out warmed my heart, not gonna lie.

I ask her name and she replied with "y/n"

Her name is so pretty just like her. It makes sense.

I hold her hand and she starts to cry even harder.

"No baby, don't cry everything is ok, it's fine, I know you're nervous but I promise everything is fine, you're safe with me, how about this, I get my guards to sneak you into the backstage area, and we get to know each other better, huh?"

She nods her head and her crying starts to slow down, i had to let her go, because if I would hold her longer, people would get suspicious.

I wave one of my guards over and make sure the coast is clear for him to sneak her back with no suspicion from cameramen and fans.

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Your POV

Oh my god! Im backstage at Billie Eilish's meet and greet!

I really can't believe this, but I'm so happy, I feel like this is fake, when she was holding me, I felt so warm and safe.

I smile into my hands and i hear the door open and Billie's voice say "how you feeling?"

I sniffle and say "I'm good, thanks"

She sits next to me and puts her hand on my lower thigh, I still get nervous and tense up, she noticed and takes her hand away, and my thigh is suddenly cold from loss of contact.

"Sorry, I don't know why i did that"

"No, it's completely fine, your hands are warm"

"Thanks, you're a lot less anxious than you were 10 minutes ago, what was up with that?

"Im not sure, I think I was on the verge of an anxiety attack, but when you held me I calmed down"

Why did I just say that? That's so weird.

"Don't even worry about it, I liked holding you, you're like, the perfect size to fit in my arms haha"

Billie's smile makes my heart melt and I want to her to hold me forever.

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Alright, its 1 in the morning and I need to go to sleep since keystones are in 2 days :)

Also why i have not been uploading, so there's the reason, not gonna lie, I wanna cry, mmm, but I'm Gucci.

Thanks for reading, byeeee!!!!