Dear diary,
AJ called me. I couldn't stay on the phone with her because I had class when she called. I had asked her to message me. Everything that she had said is still rummaging in my head. I feel like I'm still in shock. Just writing about it doesn't feel like it will do much justice and I think it might help me process things if I just write the whole conversation down on paper. My mind is still boggled by this and I severely need to figure out what to do. I'm so at a lost and I don't think I handled things the right way. I think I was too mean ot her, too hard on her... I feel so bad.
AJ: Darling! I've missed you!
Me: Where have you been loser? I've been trying to call you for months.
AJ: I was in Cali for awhile...
Me: Cali? for?
AJ: I have news for you, my sweets!
Me: good or bad?
AJ: remember when we talked about having a family together and we joked about how great moms we'd be?
Me: yeah.....
AJ: I went to Cali to go through artificial insemination! And..... I'm pregnant! We can finally be the great moms we always knew we'd be! We can be together, have a family together!
Me: AJ are you out of your damn mind?
AJ: what do you mean?
Me: Why would you get yourself pregnant like that? we never...
AJ: I thought you wanted to have a family...
Me: you never talked to me about actually getting yourself pregnant AJ.
AJ: I thought we could get together now...
Me: are you seriously that fucking... you know what, nevermind. i'm not even gonna go there. I have class.
AJ: Iris, baby, please... I did this for us...
Me: no, you did this for yourself. I had nothing to do with it AJ. YOU saw a doctor, YOU got yourself pregnant, YOU made that decision AJ. not me. this has nothing to do with me.
AJ: Iris, please... I love you and I thought you would have been happy.. we could be a family.
Me: Aj, enough. you leave me hanging for two fucking months and you come back with this? You're fucking insane right now.
AJ: don't say that, Iris, please.. baby, let's talk about this tonight. I can meet you at Roy's.
Me: Roy's? the restaurant near campus? how are you meeting me there?
AJ: I'm here Iris. I just got here this morning... I wanted to surprise you
Me: youre fucking kidding right?
AJ: no, im really here... I wanted to see you.
Me: AJ, go home... this is too much for me. i'm seriously so disappointed in you right now. I don't want to see you AJ...
AJ: Iris, please... I flew out here just for you.
Me: WELL MAYBE I DIDNT WANT YOU FLYING OUT HERE AJ...
AJ: you don't mean that...
Me: yes I do. go home. I don't want to talk to you anymore.
AJ: Iris, baby, please
AJ: Iris...
AJ: please reply...
AJ: Iris, im sorry... I thought this would have been great...
AJ: please baby, call me or text me...
AJ: please, iris, talk to me...
AJ: iris... im sorry.
AJ: I love you.
