Jacob was at the terrace, crying. He hated Seonghwa right now, he knew how important Kevin was to him and yet he had fucked everything up.
His hot cheeks contrasted to the cold weather. Fog exited his mouth as he sobbed, every tear was filled with hurt. He wanted to disappear.
He heard a door cracking but he was too afraid to look at who opened it, even when he felt two arms surrounding his waist he didn't look back, he was paralyzed.
Tears kept flowing but he didn't make any sounds, not even to breathe.
Jacob felt the instinct to run away again and his muscles tensed, but the stranger's arms grabbed him stronger.
A head was resting now in Jacob's shoulder as a voice accidentally tingled his hear.
"It's okay"
It was Kevin's voice. Jacob's heart stopped beating for a good five seconds as panic filled his mind and paralyzed his body once again. He choked his tears, too afraid to show any weakness to his crush.
Kevin noticed that and forced the other to turn around, looking directly at his eyes. Jacob looked awful and it made Kevin's heart ache.
He opened his arms, welcoming the older with a hug. Jacob surrendered and allowed himself to be hugged by the other.
As bad as he was hurting it felt amazing. It only got better when Kevin started caressing Jacob's hair, but confusion was blooming Jacob's mind. Why is Kevin here?
Kevin narrowed his eyes, he looked really drunk but that didn't make him any less attractive.
Jacob felt the other's hands travel from his shoulders to his waist and his heart started beating strongly.
Kevin closed the distance between them and their lips collided. He tasted like wine but Jacob didn't care, their lips fitted perfectly and his where as soft and plump as they seemed.
Time passed while the two boys kept kissing. Jacob wasn't noticing but he felt calmer now, maybe it was the tequila. Maybe it was the younger's scent, which was hypnotizing him. Maybe it was the increasing desperation that Kevin was kissing him with.
Kevin was more the spontaneous type, it was common for him to plan things last minute, or doing random stuff just because he wanted to.
That doesn't mean he's immature, he's just impulsive. And this was one of those times, this was an impulse kiss.
Jacob, on the other hand, felt the need to have everything under control, that's when he felt most comfortable. He overthought everything, and that kiss was completely messing up his head.
His lips started to tremble, afraid that the moment their bodies pulled apart, the kiss would turn into just a memory. Was that what he wanted, one kiss and that's it? Obviously not, he had been falling in love deeper and deeper for him for the hole semester, he didn't want to let go, he didn't want to be just a kiss for the other one's "crazy night".
His temporary happiness faded in an instant. He needed answers, did Kevin feel the same or was too drunk to think straight?
The thoughts became too much and he pushed Kevin away. "Why?"
Kevin was now one step away from Jacob, staring at the floor as if the answer was written there.
"I'm... I shouldn't have done that."
"Don't play with me, Kevin."
Jacob said, breaking down into cries again. Kevin felt horrible, but if he stayed there he would only make things worse, so he ran off.
They both returned to their respective homes. Asleep, I can't feel anything Jacob thought.
. . .
The next day Jacob woke up really late. He went to the kitchen to drink some water and while checking his phone he saw that name again. Memories flashed back to his head and he wanted to disappear again.
He decided to read Kevin's text, could this get any worse anyway?
<im really sorry for what happened yesterday. if you don't want to give me a second chance i totally understand but can we please start all over again???
Jacob stared at the screen for some minutes. A smile was drawn on his lips.
sure>
my name is Jacob, and you are??>
Without knowing, they sighed in unison. Love makes people dumb ladies and gentlemen.
