I've Experienced It

Chapter 8- Out of Hiding

Camela laid in a hotel bed, not moving. Feeling like she couldn't breathe yet a next day. It's been two weeks since the club opening and two weeks since she had came in contact with anyone other than the hotel staff. She was not picking up calls or even texting. Her head spun and she her eyes were very swollen. The last time she attempted to use her phone, she was being tagged in multiple post on gossip sites around Miami. People she didn't even knew were coming for her, she just couldn't handle the pressure. She was very much embarrassed, she even saw Ashley talking her shit, yet again. Both brothers had been blowing up her phone nonstop, asking about her wellbeing but seeing their concerned text made her want to throw up. She couldn't stand the sight of them and she honestly was done with them. During her stay with them they got her to open a bank account so she had good much money to live off until she found a job and a place to stay.

Getting out of the bed, Camela walked into the bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror. She looked drained, the glow she had faded so much she began to cry. All because she remembered this look, "Camela from Chicago". Here she was, thinking she was loved genuinely, protected and happy. She knew happiness wasn't cut out for her. She knew nothing she would ever do could be good enough, she began questioning her whole existence. Clutching her face in her hands, sliding down the wall, she cried out. She never wanted to be this broken girl again, she never wanted to see this part of her again.

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Things back at the condo was really tense, the brothers barely spoke. Only about business and if either of them heard from Camela. Jackson apologized again but since then he vowed it was his last time apologizing to Jesse. He could admit it was an asshole thing to do, to throw his own brother under the bus but he felt attacked in a situation he had no control over. He never asked Jesse to do anything but all the blame was being placed on him. He couldn't imagine what Camela was going through, was she eating? Was she sleeping? Shit, where was she? Jackson cut all ties with Ashley the next day at the hospital. She had a concussion and was threatning to press charges but Jackson talked her out of it. Shit, he didn't know if she would still press them even though, he left her. He was tired of her bullshit, all she caused in his life was problems, from the day he met her to the day she left. He felt stupid for even letting her back into his life knowing he had someone great.

Jesse on the other hand knew he was also wrong and he should've just been straight up with Camela. Jesse was really torn, she was his lil sister, he was supposed to protect her by any means. He knew Jackson was really just playing hard in this situation and he didn't fault him as much because he put him in this situation. Jesse was felt like the blame because he started it all. He knew Camela wasn't taking this well, he just wished he could hug her or even get a response. He felt like he was going out of his mind.

Jesse walked into the quiet and dark apartment, feeling empty. He sighed and walked into the kitchen and got a drink out of the fridge. He walked down the hall on Jackson's wing of the condo and knocked on his door. He didn't hear anthing so he just let himself in, "Jackson?" he called out. "Yo, ion even wanna hear it right now. I feel bad enough" was all he heard. Jesse sighed and lay down at the foot of Jackson's bed, "Bruh I'm not even here to do all that, I feel sick to my stomach for what I did. But I can't blame you for what you did. I'm sorry bro. We're so divided now, this shit is eating me up. I aint felt like this since momma." Jesse confessed. This made Jackson sit up and turn on the light. This was Jesse first time up close to Jackson for a few days, they always avoided each other since the situation. Jackson looked sleep deprived and really stressed, his skin color even looked dull. Jesse swallowed hard when he saw the toll this was taking on his brother.

"That's all I've been thinking about to be honest. Every time we got a good woman figure around something takes them away, I regret everything but most of all opening up to Camela. I feel weak and stupid. I don't know what she's doing or where she is and that makes me feel like she's passed, just like momma." Jackson confessed running his hand down his face because he felt useless and his voice was about to crack. His mom was a tough topic for him to talk about and think about. Jesse on the other hand was better at talking about their mom and remebering the good times without getting emotional. Both of them were mommas boys but Jackson was on a whole other level. He adored his mom and her strength, this is what drew him to Camela so easily. She reminded him of his mom in every way shape and form. They both expressed their feelings but were really brave, they went through a lot but still smile and most of all when they love, they loved unconditionally. Both brothers knew Camela didn't really hate them but she was really hurt and disappointed.