FOREVER US

Pathetic

ZAIN

I look at Sandra like she just grew another head. Of all reasons why I guessed I was called here, this couldn't even have crossed my mind.
I regretted why I even came from the moment I entered the room. I knew Sandra didn't harbour feelings for me but today was some what hurtful.
I still stayed though because I wanted to have a normal conversation with her. Then it became worse when Martha left. I got a little bit of hope when she asked me my age even though she forgot she was talking to me after that. It was like I made her nervous in a good way for once and she was struggling with what to say which is a first because she is usually just indifferent then she ruins all the hope  with one sentence. Now I am not even hurt but shuttered. I don't even know why. It is not like we were in a relationship. I have to confirm if  she is serious though

What did you say?

I said  i want you to dat..

Because you have seen that we so in love.

No but i thought..

I couldn't let her finish that sentence. I had to be clear with her so I just said what came to my mind.

Listen Sandra I know to you i look pathetic because i have been chasing after you and you have been ignoring me over and over again. For three months. So i think per now you have started treating me like a charity case. Rewarding me with Martha. Don't you think i saw her that day, that i still see her. But i chose you and i still choose you.
It seems though that what I am doing is just making you miserable and uncomfortable so I am gonna stop. I like you enough to want you happy even if its from my absence from your life.

I look in Sandra's eyes and I  see regret but mostly pity which gives me courage to do what I have decided after her date Martha bombshell. I will give her the space she wants. I can't keep torturing us both.
I set to open the door and leave when I hear her say something I but I couldn't get it since she was low and my mind was somewhere else now. I say pardon just to be sure I wasn't hearing things and so she repeats the words again

Please wait , dont go.

I stand by the door ready to leave anytime she says something hurtful and I am not really sure she will say anything since she aint fond of talking to me so I am kinda surprised when Sandra continues to speak.

When we met I was going through a big heart break. My boyfriend of years had just left me. He left without saying a word. I was in shock and heart broken at the same time  So Martha and some other friends of mine dragged me to the club. I was so not in the mood that is why I was just sitting there where we met. I was not even thinking about any guy and if Martha had not come and given you my number, we wouldn't be here now. I am not saying that I wish you weren't, I just wish we could have met in another life. I am the pathetic one. I am still waiting for the man who left me without a word and I don't think I will ever stop loving him. Am i still worthy pursuing. I am sorry i acted rude but I didn't want to give you false hope or also brutally reject you. I hoped you could see right through me and leave on your own.

If Sandra thought I was leaving now she should think again. At least now its clear. My ego is no longer bruised so I tell her exactly what I am thinking.

I am not leaving just because you are in  love with a guy who is not even around. I am here and he is not and at least that makes him a weaker opponent to me. I am going to be here until you get tired of me and chase me away.

I tell her I will be her friend until one day she decides to take it further. Sandra just looks speechless. At least she isn't chasing me away and that is a good sign. I then set to leave. I am glad we at least had a real conversation now.  I am about to leave but she stops me again when she says something.

About that surprise party.

Well i see its no longer a surprise but i will send you a dress.

I don't think..

I am not canceling and that's final.

Sandra didn't know yet but Zain had a feeling he could make her fall in love.

Ohhhhhhh
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