FOREVER US

Drunk

MARTHA

It has been a long time since had been at an amazing birthday party like this. Zain is really something else. If only Andie could fall for him but I know Sandra well. The happy smile Sandra is wearing might fool everyone but not me. I know Sandra would rather right now be in her room finding every way to contact Josh. Can't she understand that Josh doesn't want Sandra to find him. Maybe  I should help her talk to him. That thought alone is enough to caution me that I need to stop drinking because I really don't like where my mind is going.
I will just have fun and stop drinking that's not hard right? I walk to the guy in the corner who has been eying me like I was the queen of the day. Well he is not that cute but he could work. He is just okay not as cute as Sandie's Josh.
I really  don't like where my thoughts are going and now I am really sure I should  stop drinking. I shouldn't even smell this alcohol, its dangerous so I walk towards the guy and start dancing.
I close my eyes and just enjoy the music. I am here dancing with the guy whose name I can't even  remember. Must be George or John or Jeremy. What did it matter anyway. I must have slept off in the guys arms for a minute or two because when she look around Sandie is dancing happily and closely with Zain. They look cute together. Why can't she just fall in love with him and stop hurting for Josh. She felt she needed another drink and excused herself from the Geoffrey guy if that's his name who was very reluctant to let her go.
She gulped a glass of whatever wine Zain had bought and was reaching for another when Sandie approached her.

So you and Gideon look cute.

Who?

The guy you were dancing with.

So his name is Gideon. Not bad but it doesn't matter so I decide to change the subject.
I remember Sandra has been dancing with Zain so I tell her that she also looks cute with Zain. She just answers me that that the party is amazing. Andie even thanks me for helping push her into it.

Zain is a wonderful funny person if you get to know him.

I feel hope that I hadn't felt in a long time since since, well I won't think about that. I tell  Sandra that its good she agreed to date Zain and I am really happy for her but Sandra laughs it off.

Zain and I agreed to be friends. He knows that it will always be Josh for me so he respects that.

Now I am more than angry. Why can't Sandie just move on? I don't understand if its the alcohol but I have to be honest with Sandra now.

Josh is not coming back for you Sandra. Can't you understand that he is trying to stay away from you. You have to keep a bit of self respect and stop wanting a man who doesn't want you. If he wanted you, how come he talks to me every day.

Why did I have to realize I shouldn't have said that after saying it. At this moment I realize maybe I am too drunk I said something stupid. Ain't drunk people supposed to say mismatched words? How comes I felt like I was speaking meaningful long sentences? And why the hell was every one looking at me like I am the corrupt president of something? Did I speak so loud? And why is Sandra wearing an expression I can't read this time? Why does Sandra look like she wants to murder me? Before Martha could answer these questions. Sandra grabbed Martha's phone from her hands and walked out. I see Zain follow her behind. And it looked like everybody else is following after them. It is not surprising because most of the people here were Sandra's friends that Zain made her invite but my legs have gone on a certain kind of long holiday. I can't move even though I know I should grab my phone from Sandra before she looks through it so I just sit down right there. I see Jeremy remained in the corner looking at me but I don't care about him now. I don't think my mind cares about anything its like I have gone numb. Drunk, now I understand the literal meaning and its a combination of every thing torturous trouble and pain not forgetting ruin.

Some  drama, huh! Let me know what you think.