One month later...
Harry's POV
'Harry how pregnant am I'? Jen asked from the kitchen table.
'How would I know'?, I replied.
She just sighed.
'Three months and 9 days', she said to herself.
I was sitting on the couch watching the news.
She's stressed and in pain all the time and I'm just stressed.
I came out to the kitchen to get a drink.
'You gonna make dinner or something'? I said, not thinking.
'Do I fucking look like I'm gonna make dinner'? She snapped back.
She was sitting there, nearly crying, holding an ice pack to her back while she read a pregnancy book and was looking up remedies for back pain and morning sickness online.
'It was a question and since you so kindly said no, I'll order something then', I replied.
'Yeah order takeout... Real healthy for the third night in a row', she said.
'What do you want me to do Jennifer'?!
'I don't fucking know! What do you want from me?! I'm not gonna cook okay! I'm not even sure I can stand up I'm in so much pain you asshole!'.
'Why am I the asshole'!?
'You did this to me! Just shut the hell up and go buy your dinner then! I'll fend for myself'!
'FINE', I yelled and walked out, slamming the door.
I was sitting in the parking lot of Louisiana Takeout, just fuming.
About ten minutes later it hit me.
I am an asshole.
I hardly do anything for her, I expect her to cook and do everything on her own but it have noticed how stressed she's been and how much pain she's in.
I mean fuck me dude, I just yelled at her and stormed out, leaving her practically crying.
She can't take any pain medication and she's just plain frazzled and she's only three months into the pregnancy.
Man I've gotta change because I love her more than anything and I can't lose her.
I went to the supermarket and bought stuff to make a salad and chicken noodle soup. And flowers for her.
I got home and set everything by the sink.
She was still at the table.
'Im back' I said quietly
She was crying.
'Just get me a new ice pack', she said through her tears.
'Check this out. You put the ice pack in this wrap and it velcros around your waist so you don't have to hold it'. I said and wrapped it for her.
She didn't reply or look at me.
I squatted down next to her and put my hand over hers on her lap.
'Im sorry', I whispered.
'That was mean Harry. Why do you get so mad'?
'I don't know. I really had no idea I was being so rude until after the fact. I'm done though. I bought stuff to make you salad and soup. I'm so dumb, I know you need to eat well, were done with the takeout. I'm so dumb as a boyfriend and I'm sorry. Please... Let's start the last.. damn week over'.
'Ok' she whispered.
She just started crying again.
'Jen... What's wrong'?
'Harry it hurts so bad. My back. I'm scared to stand up.. Just.. Oww'.
I hugged her.
'Please try to relax. I'll help you up'.
'Please get the soup going first, then worry about me', she said and laughed a little.
I brought her a salad with a glass of tea and her flowers.
'Oh my god, I love you', she almost cried, reading the tea box.
I got it from a health store and it's supposed to relieve back pain.
About 20 minutes later she took the ice off and I helped her stand up.
'Good'? I asked.
She broke into a smile.
'Prefecto', she said.
I was stirring the soup and she came and hugged my back and sighed.
We ate and she was just sitting on the couch, drinking more tea.
She's starting to show, just a tiny bit. You can't tell unless you're looking for it.
'Doctor appointment tomorrow. We get to find out if our little one is a he or she'.
I just broke into a smile and kissed her.
A little while later we were snuggling in bed. I had my lips on her neck and my hand on her belly.
'Im sorry I've been acting like an ass', I said.
'Its ok baby, you're new to this whole thing too', she said, turning over to face me.
'Papi, are you crying'? She asked softly, wiping my cheek.
'No, well I was, I just feel so horrible to have talked to you like that'.
She smiled and kissed me softly.
'I know you didn't mean it papi. Its alright. I know you're sorry.. obviously. It's ok'.
I just hugged her and she fell asleep.
This is stressing me out. I've never even been in a relationship, now all of a sudden I am and she's pregnant and I act like a doushe to her when she just needs love and someone to help her.
I feel like i'm failing at everything but she still loves me. I love her more than anything but I just find it hard to show her.
I want to change so much.
I just don't know if I can...
