Strength

Makes sense

Mama was giving us the whole 'If your bad, I'm gonna send you to another dimension'  talk while Mommy was giving the look. You know the one where it says that ' if you don't keep your shit together, I will hand to over to my wolf'

I shuddered. The last time I had a phone call from school, Mommy let her wolf at me and I couldn't move for a week. She didn't hurt me or anythibg. It was just her Alpha influence that made me not able to move. Since then I've been an angel. Teehee. See what I did there.

Don't judge. It's like six in the morning. And I was stuck between my bickering brothers and Seff was asleep in the back, snoring like it was going out of style. It was giving me a headache. And on top of that, my wolf wad going insane as we got closer to the school.

What is wrong with you? I asked my wolf who stopped and looked at me for a second before moving again. Her pacing was making my head hurt worse do I let her be and tried to ignore her. Which was near to impossiable.

I guess I dozed off because next thing I know I'm being shook awake. I groan and open my eyes to see a smiling Cass. 

Wake up mouth breather she said in our minds and I snorted before getting out the truck.

"Shut up Cass" I mumble and she places a gand on my back before going up to my waiting sister and they left off to class together.

I looked longingly at their retreating forms. I wish I had that. The bell rung, jolting me out I'm of my jealous thoughts and my brothers and I rush to our lockers.

My wolf was even worse now that we are in the school. I wanted to just kick her but her pain is my pain.

"Nai?" Dava called and I looked up to find my brothers at the end of the hallway. I shut my locker at started to walk towards then when I started to feel wierd.

I don't know how to explain it. I just felt sad and sick at the same time. My wolf howled in pain and my knees grew weak. My brothers saw my struggle and rushed to me before my legs gave way.

Aramis caught me as I slumped to the floor. My body was weak and my mind was alert. Then I smelled it. Roses and green apples. The oddest scent ever but it fit.

Them I saw her. Platinum blond hair with the most stunning vivid green eyes I have ever laid my eyes on. She even had dimples. Her eyes locked on me and she froze.

As I smelled her, I seemed to get stronger. I no longer needed the support of my brothers. I tried to walk but they held me back. I snarled at then and they quickly let go.

I never tore my gaze from hers. Her sent just got stronger as I got closer to her. Her friends stared between the two of us but they were irrelevant to me. Everything was irrelevant to me. Except her.

She took a deep breath and walked towards me. Her eyes glimmered like the sun and when I finally got to her I couldn't resist. I had to touch her. My hand cupped her cheek and she sighed. She was just perfect.

Then her gaze hardened and my stomach dropped. I knew what was happening and I just stepped away from her.

"What is your name?" She looked at me. I stepped farther away.

"Anias Jaxon Marconi-Royal." I studied her features. Committing them all to memory.

"I'm not gay and I will not have a woman as a mate. Espically a weak one like you." Her words were like liquid fire coursing through my veins. " I, Elocin Alanna Natal, reject Anias Jaxon Marconi-Royal as my mate." She said and my wolf howled in absolute pain.

"Ok." I turned and walked back to my brothers. Their cats were trying to consol my heartbroken wolf, whose howls turned into whimpers as she twitched on the ground.

"Ok?" I turned around at a voice that cut razor blades into my heart.

"Huh?" I asked and she flinched slightly. Guess it won't both ways.

"I reject you and you say ok? Do you not know who I am?" Her voice was shrill as she talked.

"You were my mate. But you rejected me. And that makes sense to me. Because not all woman can cope with being gay. Or having a submissive mate.  And I'm ok with that." I said and turned to walk away with my brothers. But then I hesitated.

"I hope you find happiness. I hope that your fear was worth hurting the both of us." I said and made my way to the forest with my brothers on my heels.

I didn't shift. I just walked. And walked. And walked. I didn't even notice that it was dark. I didn't notice my brothers behind me. Nor did I notice my mother's behind me either. I didn't even notice my whole pack behind me. I just walked. And when I got to the end of our territory, my mother's stopped me.

My mother's hugged me and I sobbed. My wolf howled and I screamed in pain. Our voices mixed together, making me sound more inhuman than I already am. But I couldn't help it.

"She rejected me." Was all I said as my family got closer to try to comfort me. It didn't work. I just cried harder.

Then a fleeting thought passed through my head and I quickly grabbed it. And I held it as if it was my only life line.

I had to leave.

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Picture is Seffie.