Strength

Um Hey

"Haze! Go to your room!" I called to her and listened as her tiny feet scampered to her room. My mom stared at me with so many flickering emotions on her face. I stepped aside and she walked in.

I sighed. I'm gonna die today. I close the door and walk to the living room to find my mom pacing back and forth.

"Mom?" My moms eyes were red and I flinched.

"Mom I-" I was cut off by a bone crushing hug. My wolf hummed and made me inhale my mother's scent. It comforted me and my wolf immensely.

But then I couldn't breath.

"Ok. Mom? Cant. Breathe." I huffed out and she quickly let go. She seemed to have calmed down because her eyes were pink.

But then they turned red again.

"I should skin you alive for everyday that you have caused me panic. I should send you to the darkest pits of Hell everyday for every tear we have shed for you." I tried to speak but she growled.

"Dont you dare! Do not speak! We have suffered for two weeks! Two weeks without a word. Two weeks! It was agony not knowing where my pup is!" I kept silent and pointed to Hazel room. My mom soundproofed Hazel's food and then the whole loft.

"Why did you leave? Because of your mate? Fuck her! She rejected you and you thought you should leave? That putting your hurt feelings over your family? Anias Jaxon Marconi-Royal,  I am so fucking pissing at you!" I looked at her to see tears streaming down her face.

I rushed to her and threw my arms around her. I didn't cry but I was deeply upset. I knew I hurt my family, but I had to go.

"I'm sorry mom. I know that I upset you guys but I had to go. I had to. Just like you knew that Mommy was your mate, I knew I had to go. It wasn't just because of her. I have been feeling that something big was gonna happen and maybe Elocin rejecting me set everything in place."

"Please don't hate me Mom. I know that the way that I left was wrong but I had to. I was gonna tell you all where I was once I got Haze settled into our new life. I haven't even thought about Elocin. She wasn't the main reason I left. I just had to. Please don't make me go back." I pleaded with her.

She looked conflicted and I knew what she was thinking.  Does she risk her pups happiness for her own reassurence that she has all of her babies with her.

"I know I'm only 17 but I can be on my own. I can put Haze into a Were daycare, I can go to college. I can get a new job. Please don't make me go back. I need this."

She sighed and put her hand on my forehead. I waited until she was satisfied. She looked so tired and scared. Scared that something happened to me.

"I dont hate you baby. I don't want to leave you to be alone but I know you need this. Two weeks away from us and you seem more at peace." Hurt flashed through her eyes and I quickly corrected her.

"Not like that Mom. I love you all. I do. And it wasn't you guys at all. It was me and how I felt. I don't know why I feel more at peace but I do. Maybe I just need to find myself. Like Micah did when he gained his godly powers. He just needed to be away for a while."

She bit her lip and put her head down. She looked so tired.  This is my fault.

"Come lay down Mom. I know your exhausted." She didn't resist as I pulled her to my bedroom. I willed her into a night dress and she fell into bed, not even bothering to get under the covers.

"Get Haze and come back in here. I need my pup for a while." She said and I went into Haze room to find her nodding off watching the older version of Henry Hugglemonster.

I picked her up and on the way back to my room I willed us into pajamas. Mom was almost asleep and when I climbed into bed she automatically wrapped her arms around me in a protective embrace.

I snuggled closer. This is how she used to hold me after my nightmares. I held Haze in a similar fashion and closed my eyes.

My wolf snuggled up to my mom's angel in my mind and fell asleep. I smiled. She really missed our mom. More than I did.

"Ow Mom l. Why did you slap me?" I asked my mom who chuckled.

"I heard that you know." Oh.

"I love you Mom."

"I love you too Naibear. Don't ever put us through that again. Tell us next time." She said and fell asleep.

"I won't.  I swear it." I whispered and fell into a peaceful oblivion.

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OK so I know that before the last like four chapters I didn't really update. But school and work are taking up most of my day and nights. But since it's a long weekend, I'm gonna try to get in tho to three more chapters in.

Thank you ximennna. Because of you I have felt more inspired to update. These last few chapters were for you.

Picture is Jezebel