love /ləv/ Learn to pronounce noun 1. an intense feeling of deep affection. "babies fill parents with feelings of love"
2. a great interest and pleasure in something. "his love for football" verb 1. feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone).
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"That indirect anger, hatred, and pain isn't because of me—! I never done nothin' to you except for try to love you, and teach you how to love yourself! I've done nothin' but try to fix you but you can't fix shit that doesn't wanna be fixed!"
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[Israel In Media] [Israel]
I can admit, I'm broken. I've come to terms with myself and the truth. All she wanted to do over the past 11 months was fix me, and I didn't want to allow her.
I rejected the love that she'd provided for me because I didn't know how to handle it.
I never understood— and still don't understand her. How could you be willing to put yourself through so much for another person?
How could you stress yourself out so much, that you begin to lose sleep for another person?
All I can do is stare at her, anger was visible in her eyes, and what seemed to be hurt. She takes a moment before turning towards the door, shaking her head.
"You're a real fucked up person, you know that? You have serious fucking issues." Thats all she says before opening the door to let herself out, slamming it behind her.
I'll let her have the last word, was my first initial thought. Something inside of me urged to go after to her, to tell her I'm sorry, and I do care. I just don't know how to form the shit into words.
[One Year Ago— First Encounter]
"Israel—! You made it!" Squealed a close friend of mine, Aaliyah as I walked through the door.
"Hey girl." I give a friendly smile fully walking through the door. She gives a warm smile in return, stepping out of the way to allow the full view of the empty unit.
"Damn," I admire as she smiles sheepishly. "So, whatcha thinkin'?" She questions in search of a response staring intently into my face.
"I think, this is a million dollar establishment." She squeals excitedly. "I knew you'd like it—! Can't you see it Izzy? My designs all across the walls," She places her hands on her hips looking at the empty space.
