Broken Strings

Track 9

WARNING: Medjo SPG 😛

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Naalimpungatan ako ng maramdaman ko na parang nasa ere ako. Everything was blurry. Nakapulupot ang mga kamay ko kay Gabby. I knew it was him dahil sa kanyang perfume. He's still the same I guess.

I felt the softness of the bed on my back kaya dinilat ko ang mata ko. I caught him staring on my face. His eyes are like full of longing and sadness. Bigla kong naalala ang mga nangyari kanina...

"Sweetheart, bakit siya pa?" I said. Nangingilid na ang luha sa mata ko.

Lumalakas ata confidence ko dahil sa alak.

"Riz...." he says in a low voice.

"Ano bang kulang sakin? Dahil ba sa di tayo nag-sesex?" diretsang sabi ko sa kanya. Mukhang nagulat naman ito sa sinabi ko.

"O-of course not sweetheart! Kahit wala pa nun ay ikaw pa din ang mamahalin ko. I told you before, that can wait" he said while caressing my face. I felt the longing in my heart dahil sa init ng palad nito sa mukha ko. I reach for his hand on my face.

Gustong-gusto ko ang pakiramdam ng palad niya sa mukha ko.

"Then bakit mo iyon nagawa? Napagod ka ba sa pag-antay kaya naghanap ka ng iba? now my tears are continuously falling. Nag-faflashback lahat sakin mula ng mahuli ko sila sa condo.

"I-I felt betrayed. I-I felt too much pain. It crushed my soul until I felt numb. Kaya di niyo ko masisisi kung malamig ako sa lahat ng tao. I'm just protecting myself from another misery."

Di ko mapigilan ang aking hikbi. I looked at Gabby and saw that he's crying too. Pulang-pula na ang mata nito.

"I'm sorry sweetheart. Please let me make it up to you. I promise to-"

I silenced his mouth with my finger. I don't want to hear his promises anymore.

"I don't like promises sweetheart, because they're made to be broken."

I pull him for a hug. His face is now on my neck. I'm staring at the ceiling. I miss cuddling with him. It felt like home.

"Gabby, pwede ba akong maging selfish just for today?" Bigla naman siyang napaangat then stare at my face. I smiled weakly.

"Can you make love to me sweetheart?" I pleaded. Wala na akong paki kung nag-mumukhang desperada ako. I want him even just for the night. Dahil alam kong pag-gising ko mawawala na naman siya. Mag-isa na naman ako.

He was about to protest but I stopped him by crushing my lips to his. I miss this lips. His taste. His scent. My Gabby baby.

He's not responding to my kisses at first so I just deepened it. I smile when he responded. Unti-unti kong tinatanggal ang butones ng suot niyang polo. My hands are all over his chest after ko itong matanggal. The warmth of his body against mine sets more fire in my skin.

He removed his pants leaving only his boxers. Tinulungan naman niya akong alisin ang aking dress. Naka brassiere at lacy panty na lang ako ngaun.

"So fucking gorgeous sweetheart" he said huskily.

He kissed me again on the lips, went down on the neck. I faced sideways to give him more access. He's like a drug in my system.

His other hand cupped my bosom. I gasped. All of this is new to me. He unclasped my brassiere. "All mine" he said while looking at them. He lowered his face then start sucking them like a baby.

"O-ohh God Gabby..." I can't helped but moan. His other hand went down to my center. Another moan escaped from my mouth when he start touching it then remove the last piece of my cloth.

He removed his boxers and I gulped from what I saw. He chuckled. "Don't worry sweetheart it will fit". He position himself to my center.

"But are you really sure about this sweetheart? You know that we can stopped this-"

"Shut up Gab! Just do it damn it!" He grin and shower me kisses. I can feel him seeking entrance. God it hurts like hell when his soldier is entering slowly.

A tear escaped my eyes. "God! I'm sorry sweetheart I-I shouldn't have-" this time, I'm the one who kissed him.

"Sshh...I'm okay sweetheart. Please continue and make love to me" He nodded then slowly moving now. I can feel something tearing apart inside.

Habang tumatagal nawawala na ang sakit. I can only feel pleasure. Our bodies became one today. I will remember this feeling in my heart.

Last na itong pagpapaka-tanga ko. Salamat sa epekto ng alak at nagkalakas ako ng loob gawin ito. I will really let go of him after this. Dahil alam kong wala na akong lugar sa puso niya.