Two sides of falling (Short Story)

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Sabi nila papansin ako, pero hindi naman niya ko pinapansin. Sabi nila maganda ako, pero sa tuwing nakikita niya ko, para bang ako na ang pinakapangit na tao sa mundo. Sabi nila matalino ako, pero pag nandiyan siya parang ako na ang pinakatangang tao. Yeah, I'm stupid. Stupid enough to always unconsciously act like he was everything for me, despite the fact that he makes me feel like I was nothing to him.

I was young but I knew I was being dumb. Pero sabi nga nila, ang matalino mahina sa pag-ibig. Pero ako? Hindi lang mahina, malas na, bobo pa. I know he will never reciprocate how I felt towards him, yet I was there, acting as If telling him that it would be fine if he doesn't like me back, that it's okay even if he hates me so much, just for him to let me be with him.

Ginusto kong magbago para naman magustuhan niya rin ako, pero how could I change if I was just being stupid as I was when I'm in front of him? Hindi ako O.A, lalong hindi papansin, but I always transform to those everytime he's around. I guess I won't change as long as this stupid feelings exist.

But then I forced myself to forget him not because I wanted these feelings to be gone. . .but because he was gone. He was out my life. Hey, he was not dead but he left, literally. He left me, just like that. Oh, who am I kidding? Of course, he would leave me without thinking twice. Ang assumera ko talaga.

For him, leaving me was the easiest thing to do. I knew he wouldn't mind 'cause in the first place, he doesn't care.