Two sides of falling (Short Story)

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May mga pagkakataon na iniisip ko na paano kung magbalik siya? How would I act? Would I be stupid again? Will he hate me more? Or will he like me back? Should I ignore him? Or should I make him feel that I don't have feelings for him anymore? Oh, here I am being the dumbest person again.

I am stupid, I can admit that. Pero hindi naman ako ganun katanga para hintayin ang taong walang kasiguraduhan kung babalik pa. That's why I ignored all the questions in my mind. I started forgetting him. I started moving on.

Siguro naiinis kayo sakin kasi nagmomove-on ako mag-isa. Nagmomove-on sa taong wala na ngang gusto sakin, kinamumuhian pa ako. But just let me. I want to heal. Just let me cover up the scars he left me and you'll see, ako na mismo ang tatawa sa sarili ko dahil sa mga katangahang ginawa ko.

It was not easy but it was not that hard. Lalo na't paminsan minsan naiisip ko siya. I had my crushes but there were instances when I compared them to him. Yes, I was dumb again. So in order to move on, I tried to hate him. I forced myself to hate the person I liked. That was hard but everytime I thought of how much he hates me made it easier.

3 years had passed and I failed. I didn't hate him. He was still part of my past. He was once part of my life. But here's the good news though. The feelings were gone. I didn't forget him, but the pain was gone. Now, I can surely say that I am matured enough. I've changed and I know he won't hate me again, but if ever, I wouldn't care.

The thought of him coming back didn't matter anymore. He don't matter to me anymore.