Two sides of falling (Short Story)

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Getting her out of my life is a breath of fresh air for me. Feeling ko lumaya ako sa isang napakasikip na hawla. I loved the feeling. I was free, yet up until now, I still don’t know why I feel like something is missing.

There were times when she entered my mind. At first, sabi ko sa sarili ko, of course it’s not easy to forget someone you hate. I’m not missing her, there’s not even a slight possibility for me to miss her. Wala naman sigurong gugustughing balikan ang isang taong nagpapakulo ng dugo niya. She never mattered to me. Never was and never will.

I found new friends and entered relationships when I entered college. I had some girlfriends. They make me smile, yet they never made me happy.Walang spark, as in wala talaga. Akala ko it’s just because they weren’t really meant for me. But then, sino ang para sakin?

I stopped having relationships because I think I’m not yet prepared. I’ll just wait for signs. I guess I’m not yet matured enough to be in a serious one. Then that thought made me think of her. She always enters my mind when I think about maturity. Probably she’s already 17 and 3 years should’ve been enough for her to change a lot.

I started thinking how much she changed her careless actions. I started thinking how she had changed acting in front of other people. I started thinking on how she just thinks about herself instead of thinking about others.

I never thought I was capable of this but, for the first time in my life, I started missing her.