He made me experience different kinds of firsts. Siya ang unang lalaking nagpabilis ng tibok ng puso ko. Siya ang unang lalaking pinangarap kong sana maging akin. Siya ang unang lalaking pinagtapatan ko ng tunay kong nararamdaman. Yes, he was my first love yet, he was also my first heartbreak.
They’ve always say I was so immature back then. Masyado daw kasi akong halata na gusto ko siya. You know, the typical teenager. Nagiging O.A pag andiyan ang crush niya.Yung tipong nagpapapansin ba?You can’t blame me for feeling this crush at first sight at him, and for pete’s sake! I was just 14 at that time! What do you expect?
Yes, I was JUST 14 yet he was too cruel to me, too cruel for my feelings. Alam kong alam niya ang nararamdaman ko but he showed me like he doesn’t care about my feelings. Like he doesn’t care about me. . . .at all. Oo, ang bata-bata ko pa nun pero nagdadrama na ko, but he could’ve shown like he also thinks about me, kahit konti. Kahit konting-konti. He could’ve explained why he doesn’t like me. Of course I would understand. But he didn’t. Yes, I’m getting demanding to think that in the first place, he didn’t like me, he don’t like me and he won’t like me.
Young as I was, it hurt me but it was not a big deal. How he treated me back then didn’t matter that much. I still liked him, he was still my crush. My ultimate crush to be exact. And what am I to him? I guess I was just somebody. . . close to being to nobody.
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BINABASA MO ANG
Two sides of falling (Short Story)
Cerita PendekDifferent sides, different degrees of pain, let’s see who’ll move on or let’s see who’s still holding on.
