The New Boy

I fucked up.

On the way to my house, James was quiet and sad looking, "You okay?", I asked.

"Yeah", He responded looking down.

I stopped walking and held his arms looking straight at his face, "I get really pissed off when someone tries to hide something from me, what is it?"

To my surprise, his eyes started getting really wet like he was about to cry, and before I could say anything he looked down trying to hide it, "I don't think it's a good idea for me to go to your house today." 

I slowly took my hands off of him, "I'm sorry James, it wasn't my intention to scare you." I said while a weird feeling started burning in my chest.

"It's not your fault Ed, just... I'll let you know when I'm ready", He looked at me forcing a happy face with all of his strength.

Before I could reply he just left and started walking back the way we came, for some reason I stood there without reaction, I couldn't understand why he was acting that way, he always seemed so happy and careless, but for some reason now he was just sad.

When I finally started walking home again I felt a hand touching my shoulder, "James?" I said turning with hopes he was feeling better, but those hopes were instantly shattered as the person behind me was Zoe.

"God, of course, it's not James", she said with a sad face, "Where is the little prick by the way?".

"He's not a little prick Zoe", I said with anger, "Why are you being so mean to him?".

"Why I'm being mean? You're kidding me, right? He sat in my place and got all your attention for himself, do you know how boring it is to watch the whole class alone?" She said while her eyes were starting to fill with tears.

"Yeah, I know!", I screamed, "Yesterday was not the first time you left me alone in school, but it was his first day, what you want me to do? It's your fault you weren't there".

"Don't scream Edward, you know I hate when people scream at me" The tears were already rolling down her face.

"You come here for no reason other than to talk shit about James and you want me to not scream at you? Fuck you, Zoe." For some reason, the words just jumped out of my mouth going right at her face, Zoe didn't react, she didn't scream back, she didn't say a thing, all I could see was the tears.

After all my rage was shown, Zoe reached her bag getting two pieces of paper, "Here, use with James, I'm sure you'll have a good time", she pressed the papers against my stomach and let them fall on the floor when I kneeled to get them she started running away.

Looking at the papers I realized it was two movie tickets for a movie I was dying to see the whole month, behind them our names were written, and beside mine, there was a little heart, my chest started burning again, that feeling started attacking me, a feeling hard to describe, but so real I couldn't breath properly. I dragged myself home with only one thought in mind: "I fucked up".