「 days without you 」

xvii.

Thursday 12:21am 16 August 2018

I can't delete photos, 

so I look back when I'm in a mood 

for my favourite videos 

but alongside those exist 

the videos of your laughter 

and 'I love you's.

I stare at the screen and 

I go into a dark state of oblivion.

you looked so happy. 

where did it go wrong?

I whisper to the screen 

as if you can hear me; 

"you belonged to me."

I know better than anyone, 

how to be in love with someone 

but be in a relationship with another. 

I am selfish. 

I am cruel.

I keep looking, 

I keep checking because the truth is;

I don't want to forget.