Room B12

Alan

"Yes." I said nervous and worried and freaking out. "You baby has Atrial Septal Defect ASD for short along with Hirschsprungs disease." He said. "Exsplain please." Wedgie begged. "ASD is where a baby is born with a hole in its heart. Hirschsprungs disease is when the colon has a defect. Where the child is unable to pass stool." The doctor said.

"Hes gonna die isnt he?" I asked. "Theres a strong possibilty he wont live the rest of the week." The doctor said. I then fell to my knees. I started crying. Wedgie then got right in front of me and started hugging me.

I couldnt stop crying. Till I finially relized I needed to see her now. No matter what. "Take me to Alan!" I said trying to stop the tears. Wedgie held me as the doctor led us to Alan. He was in the special care unit.

"Get a photographer down here. I need pictures." I said on our way up and Wedgie then made two phone calls and he said they were on there way now. The doctor then opened a door. I breathed in and out again.

Over in an incubator was a very small little boyl. My son. They got him out and let me hold him. I stroked his cheek very gently. "Hey Alan." I said in quitet soothing voice. This little boy was to good to be true to good for this world.

He was so very tiny. To tiny. Right then in there I knew he wasnt going to make it. Far to perfect for this world. "Its gonna be okay." I said tears running down my face. I put a kiss on his tiny little head. Wedgie then came and gave us both a kiss.

The photographer arrived and we got a family photo. The first and the last one we will ever have with this little miracle. I sat and I held him for a long time but not long enough. I want years not days.

"You are my sunshine. My only sunshine, you make me happy, when skys are gray, youll never know just, how much I love you, so please dont take my sunshine away." I sang silently. I then grabbed my engagment ring off my finger and put it on his small tiny wrist.

"We will always be with you. No matter what. You can let go Alan. You dont have to hold on. I know your tired. Tired of fighting. Go be with God my very own little angle." I said. Tears streaming down my face. Then the sound that would forever change my life did. It was the sound of his heart stopping.

The line went flat. His grip on my finger tightened just for a minute and he let go... "May we meet again my son." I said. "You are my sunshine my angle forever." I said. After a minute they had to take my baby away.

I had to sign some papers and then we left. We went home. When we got home Roby sat at the kitchen table. I went to my room. "He didnt make it did he?" I could hear Roby ask. "Alan Hediea Lane is now in heaven." I heard Wedgie said and I cried myself to sleep that night.