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chapter 4: Hayden's Feelings

It's been almost a 4 months since I first met y/n and I like her a lot. I don't know if she feels the same way though it's scary to think that she doesn't but I am going to have to take a few risks in life and this is the first one, I never knew I could have feelings this strong for someone especially since I have only met her 4 months ago. 

I have never caught feelings this fast before but it's just something about her that has me thinking about her all the time. everywhere I go she's on my mind, every time I try to think about something else it never happens I always think about her and what she's doing she is always on my mind all the time and it seems as if it's almost impossible to stop thinking about her. 

I decided to tell her through a note it was kind of odd considering that me and her have just met and I was acting shy to tell her but I am a guy and the ones who don't stutter or get nervous when they tell you face to face that they like you that's a huge sign that it's not real but I am too nervous to go up to her face to face and tell her and I know that what I feel is real and whether or not she reads the letter or she throws it away I am always going to try and find a way for her to become mine. 

Dear y/n , 

I want you to know that I am very nervous right now, I also want you to know that even though I am not speaking these words to you right now using my mouth my feelings are true. Yes I just said feelings. I have never felt this way about anyone before but I know that what I feel for you is true and I also know that you are beautiful, talented, smart, funny, kind, loving, caring, outgoing, down to earth, and special you not only can make me blush but you have the ability to make me weak in the knees. you are the most amazing girl I have ever met and know. My aunt really likes you too which is a bonus. these feelings that I feel inside of my heart is why I have been so protective and even if I didn't feel like this I still would protect you with everything I have inside me because you deserve to be protected at home and school. you have a bright future ahead of you I know you do, I watch how you act around me and I have never seen you smile so much in the beginning it was here and there but now it's all the time. I understand if you don't feel the same way. as long as you know how I feel that's all that matters.