THE LOVE FROM BENEATH

Her Love Or Her Lover

Tia's pov-

I'm not in control anymore. What do I do I mean. Mike's back and he's looking for blood. You would think after abusing me our whole relationship he would leave me alone. Why?! Why am I so fucked up?!

I just fuck everything up I can't love another person when I don't even love myself. What is love anyway? Why hasn't anyone shown me yet how to love. What in the hell makes you think I would show love when all I'm given is hate.

I sat down at the table looking at the foods Racheal worked so hard to make so perfect but I just shoved her away. Why is she so different than any other bitch I fucked....

Was it because of how soft she was. Her pale skin the way it felt on mine? Or the way she tasted like cherries and smelted like apples. Wait what the fuck am I thinking? This is to fucking crazy.

I can't have feelings for her I just can't. Why can't i?bitch cause I fucking said so. What if she has a girl already and I just fucked up their relationship by sleeping around. Oh shit I'm late for class I have to hurry and get dressed. I go and put on my black and red jordan shirt and jacket with my red and black jordan pants and socks and looked at myself in the mirror. Then I looked at my wrist seeing the bandages and quickly covering them.

I waked to the door I was in racheal's classroom I was 30 minutes late. I knocked on the door and waited to be let it. Racheal came to the door and let me in she walked away damn near hitting me with her hair as she turned away she was clearly pissed off.

Racheal said"Why are you late Tia?!" She said louder than what was actually needed.

I looked at her and without second thought I said"Because there was this bitch in my house and I had to kick her out!"

Racheal looked hurt but I really didn't care anymore everyone knew I didn't have to make a scene.

Racheal was quick to pull me outside the classroom slamming the door and glared at me. "Who in the heck do you think you are?!"

My eyes showed rage"I think I'm the stupid cold hearted bitch that f.!"

Racheal covered my mouth quickly and looked around the hall.

Racheal said slowly "u can't say that tia"she whispered"u know u can't say anything about that day"

I smiled evilly"and why can't i?"

Racheal"cause I'll lose my job tia"

"maybe thats a good thing. Coming here and not seeing the beautiful you anymore. Not to see ur deep blue eyes, hear your lovely mesmorizing voice anymore..."I quickly realize I was kinda sad about the idea. I know this is wrong but I really do care about her more than I probably should...scratch that I shouldn't care at all so why do I? My thoughts were quickly cut off by racheal's next statement.

"why do you hate me so much? I never did anything to you but care for you. Is that so wrong to you? "her eyes were starting to fill with tears. Did I cause this pain on her did I hurt her this badly? I never wanted to ever make those beautiful eyes cry. Those blue and green eyes that saw into my soul.

I looked down at the floor and said nothing.

Racheal lifted my face up"please answer me tia."

I couldn't find my way to do it. I couldn't answer her. As if she knew I couldn't she hugged me for the both of us we needed this. She didn't deserve my bullshit in her life. Why does she care about me im a asshole then my feeling i cant control would I only hurt her?

I wrapped my arms around her hugging her back. I really wanted her body pressed on mine even though I was still in pain I was happy. I kissed her head softly and she snuggled and smiles at me.

"I'm sorry."shit why did I fucking say that?!

Racheal just smiled"it's ok darling u should get to class."