Sweet as Sugar : Confessions of a Sex Addict

Much Needed Captivity😊💯

       I feel undeserving of a beautiful day such as this one💯...the scenario I woke up to this morning...just feels wasted on one such as me....but I appreciate it so💯💯

       Last night went wonderful...I really felt as if Mrs.Mary came to life in my hands😍& gave me life in return💯All of us came together in the band & it just worked💯 Hearing our sound...it was just amazing💯 I really enjoyed being able to play with such skilled musicians...it's always an honor💯🤘🎸🎶🎵🎼🎷🎺& Guess who did come see me play? Ms. Deelishis😍

    I did ask her if she'd like to come by & see me do my thing💯 when she said she would, ain't gon lie, I got kinda nervous, bcuz sometimes I get hit on by some of the audience women, & I really didn't want that to be her first impression of me; a playboy or some shit...(no, I'm not one...I heard someone thinking that)...when I saw her, I swear, I got so happy bcuz she made her way thru & found herself a spot to post up on....I told the bartender to send her whatever she wanted to drink....I felt my heartbeat in my throat😂😂😂

     Deelishis was looking so fine💯😍...this woman is stellar💯Just a look & smile from her made my night💯...ain't gon lie, I was still in my feelings, always in my feelings tho😔 I think of everything when I'm in my feelings, & every little thing bothers me😔...

    It's been brought to my attention that I'm really thought of to be nasty...bcuz I eat ass & pussy...sooo, I'm nasty bcuz I'm real💯...bcuz I'm not afraid to put u in my mouth?...bcuz I am a realist & I promote smiles not frowns?....well, I guess I'm nasty bcuz I won't ever stop...my future wife will thank me for that💯 But hearing that shit, although it wasn't aimed in an aggressive manner but simply brought up in a conversation😏 figuring that shit out made me feel some kind of way😔...I felt as if no matter how well groomed, well skilled I am, no matter how hygienic....I will always be judged for what I choose to put in my mouth😔🤷 & seeing how it came from Instagram, I felt sick...this from someone whose been giving me encouragement...I'd mentioned once giving up something I ate in order for Brown Sugar to kiss me; she wasn't fond of them...I only wanted to make her happy😔I'd do anything or give up anything if it afforded me a kiss from the woman I loved💯.. but what my friend implied next😔...talks may sometimes go astray but intentions, although left behind, still have sting😔 I'll always know in the back of my mind what u really think of me 😔😔😔K.G....that I would intentionally kiss a woman after eating another woman's ass😔...

    Well, seeing those sick dimples of Deelishis made me feel a whole lot better💯...I just wanted to plant my lips on her cheeks tho😍After our set was done, I went straight to her, with the swiftness...we got out of there...I followed her to her house...

    Needless to say, I was beyond ready to find out if that ass was real or not😏, but I wanted to talk to this woman first💯There were some things I needed to tell her, some things I felt she needed to know...but I was embarrassed, didn't know how to openly tell her that I was a freak😔; sure, I could show her...😏

    We had a drink together after she let me help her with her heels😍😍😍...her legs tho😍...I had to fight my own self like crazy💯... the demon😈 was telling me to pounce on that💯...the way she kept crossing & uncrossing her legs😵😵😵had me shook, for real🍆💯...I tried to focus; I tried telling her about Cotton, that I was meeting her later...I needed her to hear me but Ms. Deelishis wanna run her hand down my face😵😵😵😵

      I had to almost blurt it out...I told her she really shouldn't be tempting me the way she was😵 she asked me why...I told her I had a sickness😔...an addiction😔...I told her I couldn't help myself at times💯😔that I slept with lots of women...that I could become extreme...she was still touching me...told me to prove it😵🍆