Seclusion. (Jack Gilinsky)

Chapter 3

Alexa POV
Journey Entry two: August 11
I cannot let it take over me. I will not be secluded.

The second day of school is worse in my opinion. Especially Tuesday's. At least school went by quick. I was home by mussels for a few hours after cheer. Sam walked in in the house finally. It was 5:30. I finished my homework about an hour ago and was just reading. Sam walked over to where I was sitting on the couch.

"Alexa I'm ready to tell you." He said.

I looked at him confused. "Tell me what?" I asked.

"You asked why Jack and I have awkwardness between us."

Sam told me that Jack had hurt me. I got a concussion that night, 4th of July because I had told him that Jack had pushed me into a wall, but he wasn't sure as to why Jack did it.

"So the doctors said I could try showing you things that could jog your memory to that night."

Sam gestured for me to follow him upstairs so we were in his room. He sat on his bed fumbling with the covers and held up a bag of weed and a joint.

The flashback hit me hard. I had come on to Jack. I was high. I had tried to kiss Jack. He stopped me. He hurt me.

*an hour later*

I woke up with an ice pack on my head. Not gonna lie my head hurt like a bitch.

"Remember anything?" Sam asked me.

I didn't wanna tell Sam I tried to kiss his best friend. I couldn't.

"We had an argument over something stupid, we were both high and he pushed me." I lied.

Sam thought for a moment. "Well okay. I'm keeping my eye out because Jack and Jack are gonna be over here in a little to make some vines and you should probably stay away from Gilinsky..." He said.

"Fine." I said. I pointed upstairs, "room." I continued, "I'll make a better vine than Yall." I joked.

I did need to update vine so I decided to make one about school. It got about 115.7k likes and 101.5k revines, I guess it was pretty funny.

I wanted to do a cover on YouTube of Robin Shulz' song "Waves" so I decided to practice a little on the piano.

Jack's POV

Jack and I went over to Sam's house because we needed to update vine. And yeah, we were gonna smoke some weed.

After two hours of making vines and getting high Sam spoke.

"Aye I'm gonna go grab some dinner for us y'all wanna come?" Sam asked.

"Can I stay here? I literally feel like I'm gonna pass out." I said, I did feel a LOT light headed.

"Um yeah I guess. I can't remember if anyone is home or not so keep it down. And stay down here. Johnson?" Sam said.

"I'll come bro" Johnson replied.

They left. I was trying to close my eyes when I heard a voice upstairs and the sounds of a piano.

Alexa's POV

"I'm slowly drifting away, drifting away
Wave after wave, wave after wave
I'm slowly drifting, drifting away
And it feels like I'm drowning
Pulling against the stream
Pulling against the..."

Surprisingly another voice chimed in.

"I wish I could make it easy
Easy to love me, love me
But still I reach
To find a way
I'm stuck here in between
I'm looking for the right words to say"

It was Jack. I must of not heard him come in. I thought Sam had them downstairs? Jack started leaning like he was going to kiss me. I didn't want to but I did want to. But right before our lips touched my phone started ringing. I smiled. It was Shawn.

"I have to answer this" I said looking at my phone.

He gestured me to do so. I went into the living room before answering.

"Hi Shawn." I smiled.

Jack's POV

I frowned a bit that Alexa lit up when someone called her. Probably the guy she likes. Hopefully not Shawn, he's always had a thing for her and I can't stand it. I don't know if I'm jealous or protecting her like an older brother. But I can't believe Alexa doesn't think she can sing. She's really good. I also can't believe I almost kissed her, I don't know if I wanted to or if I was caught up in the moment. I mean Leigh and I are still sort of dating. But she's so far away and probably cheated on me again, and I almost just cheated on her. Great relationship.

Alexa's POV

"I don't think I'm gonna go. We could hang out after the game though?

I asked Shawn on the phone. He agreed then we said our goodbyes on the phone and hung up. Now to deal with Jack. I frowned when I remembered what happened between us. And I don't want it to happen again. Especially since he broke Sam's trust and my heart. I walked back in my room. God Sam would kill Jack if he knew what was going on right now.

"Alexa you're so good at singing. I've been thinking about our duet and it should totally happen." Jack smiled.

I fought the urge not to smile back. I looked down and made no eye contact with him what so ever.

"There is no duet Jack. And you can't almost kiss me." I said and grabbed my shoulder, a nervous habit of mine, walking over to my closet.

Jack thought in realization. "So you do remember what happened at the party? Alexa I'm-"

I cut him off. "You should go..." I said.

He was silent for a moment.

"You need to go right now. Before Sam gets home and sees whatever this is. Just leave and go back downstairs." I said sternly. Then he walked to the door. But before exiting he turned around.

"At least tell me who you were on the phone with." He said.

I looked up at him. "Shawn. Now go."