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Rant (don't mind me I just have to go off for a bit)

Kay so this isn't art but I just wanna go off real quick because I really need to get this out

There's my current favorite GG compilation, it will help for the aftermath of this rant

okay here we go (just saying its bouta get real depressing and personal)

I absolutely hate it when friends that were so close to you, like you two were inseparable, suddenly just stops being as close to you and moves on to someone else who is obviously better than you in many ways, but then when you stop talking to them or move away, or get closer to someone else from the same friend group, obviously calls you out through a private snap story without saying your name, but it so obviously being directed towards you and the whole friend group sees it. Like they say "don't you just hate it when someone you care for moves away and they don't even talk to you? cause it sucks ya know" and it fucking pisses me off cause if you want to talk why don't you make the effort why don't you talk to me when you know that im not a talkative person when you know im not good at making/keeping conversations. why do you have to guilt trip me into talking to you, only when I do its not even like old times and then like a week later you don't talk to me again and only send me shit like streaks

but then again, its also kind of my fault. I feel like the depression has really gotten to me after I moved away, because ive been purposely trying to avoid them. Like when I see they dm me on insta or something and im on it, I close it immediately. and I know how horrible that is, but I don't know. I don't know. im choosing to push myself away to the point where I don't even open insta or snap as much just so they don't think im ignoring them, which I am. I guess I just don't wanna feel sad knowing that Im not there with them, knowing that theyre all together and happy. I mean, I do open them eventually but not until like three hours after they were sent. and some times it is because of school because were not allowed to use our phones unless we're in the caf

but then I remember that they didn't answer me right away, even when it's something important like a crush or family or friends or whatever even though I answered them right away when it comes to them, and I don't feel as bad

AAHHH man im sorry I got real depressing and personal, but it felt real nice to let it out, hope yall don't mind

kay bye bye

-Em :)